My waifu is (apparently) Trixie now, whether I want her to be or not... I'm writing an adorable snuggle scene between the two of us at this point and I'm coming to realize that this is cathartic for me... Because of the way I am and how I was hurt, coupled with the fact my estrogen-soaked brain is reforming right now, I can't really be in a relationship with well, anypony! And so, I must make this journey, by myself... But does that mean I have to be alone? That's the question I'm

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Honestly, becoming a brony not only saved my life, but it opened up a whole new world to me. A world of imagination and stories. A world of colors and art and music. And through my writing, I've come to realize that I'm attacking my own demons, one at a time. Trixie Interviews got me over the death of my parents. Gabriela at least addressed some of my initial concerns about life, love, and the world at large. Twinkle Shine showed me how to deal with my past, by simply accepting it for what it

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I'm not really sure where my ideas come from, but I recently started a new story about Sunny Starscout being haunted by the long-dead ghost of Scootaloo! However, for reasons which will be revealed in the story, Scootaloo is basically forced to wear a chicken costume! I'm just over 1500 words into the first chapter and Izzy just met her! Oddly enough, Izzy Moonbow is a good pairing with Scootaloo...

I've been thinking a lot about what I wrote here over the course of about 17 days. I've been re-reading segments of it and trying to make sense of it, because the truth is, I just knew I had something to say. But I did not know exactly what that was... But the more I analyze it, the more I'm starting to realize that at its core, this is a story about letting go. Here, I'm consciously making a decision to leave my past behind... Like Twinkle Shine said, I don't need to remember. Simply

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Some of my readers seem a bit unclear on this, so permit me to elaborate. Whether Twinkle Shine remembers being Cozy Glow or not, she still has Cozy's mind and Cozy's intelligence. She doesn't exactly have the same requirements as most fillies and what she needs most is emotional support right now as she battles with this monster in her head. The reason why I hinted at Izzy being a motherly figure for Twinkle was actually intended to be just part of their dynamic. It's also important to

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Many of the transgender allegories used here are fairly obvious. For instance, Twinkle Shine is the name she chose for herself, and therefore, her name is Twinkle Shine now, and not Cozy Glow... Her ghosts are a past reflection of herself, much like my own ghosts are just past reflections of me. They haunt her dreams, and while she cannot get away, she can learn to deal with these nightmares and possibly even make friends with them.

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I can't for the life of me, figure out what's come over me as of late? Today, I wrote 1366 words into my Little Adventures tale as Cozy, Trixie, Starlight, Twilight, and now Discord all try to deal with poor Little Snack's situation, although something new just emerged... I also wrote 706 words into my Everfree Slayer story as Rarity plays cards with my villain Starfall and they discuss the meaning of life... I'm going to give Twinkle Shine a little break now since I did just release three

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Yes, the filly is obviously Cozy Glow, but for the purposes of this experiment, she really does have amnesia. The filly can't recall her past so well, just like I can't after all the changes that have happened to my body... Also, some of you have been wondering why she smokes dope? Well, understand first off that this filly represents me in Equestria. I'm a recovering alcoholic and I'm also autistic with suicidal depression. And while I'll be the first to admit that I probably smoke at least a

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Starfall Twinkle represents everything evil and vicious inside me. She is nihilistic, fatalistic, and nothing really matters to her. In her conversation with Rarity, what the fashionista doesn't realize yet is that she essentially has to defeat nihilism in this instance. Nietzsche and other existentialists understood that in order to do that, you had to find meaning to your own existence. When he declared, "God is dead!", what he really meant was that at that stage of human evolution, people no

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This story is another thought experiment. A pink pegasus filly with a curly bluish-white mane and tail, and a rook for a cutie mark, wakes up in an abandoned courtyard in the G5 world, with no recollection of who she is or how she got there. She travels northwest to Bridlewood, where she meets Izzy Moonbow! Izzy notes that this filly is whimsical and that she says golly a lot, but is perplexed as to the scenario the filly described. They travel southeast to Maretime Bay to meet Sunny there...