On the Topic of Announcements Regarding Intentions of Suicide · 9:03am Jun 30th, 2021
Allow me to start this blog post with the following rant.
My name is Mathew Allen Korsgaard. I am 24 years old and currently preparing to move out of Concord, California.
I was born with Asperger's Syndrome, Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder, and, relevant to this topic, Schizotypal Personality Disorder.
Schizotypal Personality Disorder is literally Schizophrenia incorporated into an individual's personality.
I can confirm after 24 years of living with it.
It is not pleasant.
It has led me to actually have suicidal thoughts quite often.
I have coping mechanisms.
But that doesn't make them any less present.
But one thing I have noticed in my time as a suicide risk, both official and otherwise, is that people who are genuinely considering just ending it, will not announce their intent to do so on a PUBLIC FORUM.
Typically such announcements are either nonexistent or saved for a note to be found with their corpse.
It is my experience that people doing so on such a public scale as the INTERNET are not truly feeling the soul crushing depression which saps away all will to do anything more than lay in bed and waste away, and are instead merely emotionally unstable individuals who cannot process a large influx of what they perceive to be negativity.
I say this as a man who's MOTHER AND OWN SELF are such individuals that are seeking mental help.
I think I am at least allowed a guess as to the true workings of certain types of mindsets.
People who lack Emotional Stability will more often seem like they are going through mood phases, rather than mood swings.
I call the phases distinct from swings because they last a relatively steady amount of time, but the next emotion after that is anyone's guess, whereas with Mood Swings they are random in length but typically go between 2 or 3 emotions.
How does this all relate to Suicide announcements on the Internet?
If the individual truly thought the only answer to their problems was their own death, THEY WOULDN'T SAY SO ON THE FUCKING INTERNET.
And even if for some fucking reason I end up wrong, SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER.
You end your own suffering, yes.
But what about the people who CARE ABOUT YOU?
My name is Mathew Korsgaard.
AKA Cyrus Colter.
Stay True to You.
And Don't Decide Suicide.
Nopony should never commit suicide and leave their loved ones alone and sad. But, unfortunately, we all get those thoughts now and then. I suffered six years of child abuse and lived those years feeling like a slave. But ever since, I found both My Little Pony and recently Sea of Thieves. My life is getting better because of the communities that keep me sane and loving both the pony world of Equestria and the pirate's life of the Sea of Thieves. That's why my motto is LIVE LONG AND PLUNDER, as well as singing happy and uplifting songs.
STAY SAFE AND STAY HAPPY, LADDY.