I really should probably stop trying to keep promises... · 1:38am Nov 3rd, 2015
So, I'm well aware that very few people are probably still watching me, or any of my stories. It's been over a year since I updated, after all.
But I owe you an explanation.
For the past year I have been in extremely poor health. I've had constant, severe back pain that no treatment was able to cure and no proper diagnosis was given. I've been in and out of the hospital since last December, but I've still been trying to work for a cosmetics company and study when I was well enough to do so. Unfortunately this may have caused even more problems- by pushing myself to the limit like that I was putting strain on my already damaged body and opening myself up to complications. It seems like every other month I've contracted some other kind of illness as well, and there was a scary incident in July where I thought I overdosed on hydrocodone (it's a long story- I was so ill and delirious that I couldn't remember if I'd taken the medicine yet or not and took several doses of it within in short period of time).
Every doctor I've been to has told me something different- one diagnosed me with fibromyalgia, another told me I probably had cancer in my spine (thankfully I do not, there is no evidence of that at this time), someone else told me it was nerve damage, and a different doctor told me it was muscle atrophy. I still don't know what it is, other than that it sucks. I also have, at this specific moment, the flu. But at least the flu is temporary, you feel like crap for a week or so and then you're fine. The back pain on the other hand, is something I'll probably have to live with my entire life. I've also been informed it's very unlikely I will ever be able to become a mother, because of the strain I have been under and the medications involved.
Fortunately, however, I have been slowly recovering. When I'm well enough I've been able to do my job selling makeup, and go to university. Assuming I can make it through another six weeks without any incidents severe enough to require hospitalization again I'll be graduating with my degree finally in December, and then I'll be moving back in with my family, so that I can more easily receive the medical care needed to return to normal, full health.
Please also realize that I haven't forgotten about my fics, especially Grandfather's Coming For A Visit. Truthfully, the ponies have been a huge help to me during this time- there's nothing that lifts your spirits quite like the Magic of Friendship.
While I can't promise an update anytime soon, I have been working on Grandfather's Coming For A Visit, and hope to have an update by Christmas. Please look forward to more of Loki getting to know his granddaughters and the Cutie Mark Crusader Patriots (Yay!). I'd like to thank anyone who's still reading and enjoying my work, and I apologize for the long delay.
While I am not a doctor in any sense of way, have you checked to see if it was bone deterioration? I know my little brother had that awhile back and we finally got it under control a few years ago.
May I offer a hug?
I'll be right here waiting and praying for news of your full recovery.
Take all the time you need.
Ouch, that really sucks. A good chiropractor might be able to help if you haven't seen one yet because the spine is their specialty and misalignment in the spine can easily pinch nerves and cause serious pain along with other problems both in the back and elsewhere, but if you have been through as much as you say you have probably already explored that option.
Sounds like nutritional deficit. Of course, I'm not a doctor. My opinion isn't legit enough for shit. I'd suggest going to a specialist, but everybody knows college students can't afford anything of the sort.
Good luck, though. Back pain is no joke.
Shit man, life's piling it on ya huh? Don't strain yourself for us because you think we're gonna be pissed and leave or something, I mean, we're still here aren't we? Get better soon man, we can wait but your health can't.
Chronic severe back pain is the worst. And it makes you all depressed as well - because you can't do anything, and you feel like your whole life has collapsed down to your present circumstances. But that's not true. You will get better.
Have you tried seeing a chiropractor? May help - may not. No promises. Think of a Chiropractor as your long term back-care provider. A doctor is fine if you have an acute problem like a disease or injury. But after they discover they don't have any magic pill (or operation) to give you - they sort of give up on actively caring for you.
P.S. I really liked your story (Grandfather...) I can wait while you recover.
Just concentrate on getting better! We'll all still be here, but your health comes first!
These stories are not as important as your health. Granted, I really want to know how it ends....but here?....thing in life take president. You do everything to get well.
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Actually, that was one of the first things they checked on me, back in last December. My bones are about the only part of me that seems to be functioning properly these days. But thank you for the suggestion- seriously, anything that could be the problem is a welcome suggestion.
Thank you for your good thoughts! I appreciate them.
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Thank you, I appreciate it!
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I actually had been seeing a chiropractor, which seemed to be helping a lot, and then the insurance cut me off. At this point the only thing they're willing to pay for are pills- which help, but I also don't want to be on opiates for the rest of my life.
But I'm surviving- I'll make it through. Thanks for your good thoughts, I appreciate it.
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Thanks, everyone!
3521345 Don't thank me. I haven't offered to help you and my sympathies are minor at best. Besides, I have a relative, (of sorts), that suffers from chronic back pain as well. He still manages to grade papers, write essays, and run a fantasy football team in support of the Patriots.
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3521345 No prob, Bob.
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You're welcome.
Church-mouse I be....I can pray...a lot.
3521340 Honestly, based on my experience, knowledge, and this comment, I think you should go back to it with or without support from your insurance company. They might even offer a discount if you pay out of pocket like mine does (it goes from $71 a visit to $35 so it is actually cheaper for me to keep the insurance company out of the loop even though they would partially cover it) which could help you get better without breaking the bank or being on drugs indefinitely. After all, it is worth spending a bit more now to actually get better and eliminate the expense of the drugs in the future.