Feeling a bit CD Projekt Red right now. · 5:36am Jan 11th, 2021
I'm not entirely sure what I should say right now. I suppose the first thing would be to apologize. I commented on Frey'd recently that I would try to post yesterday, and the weekend's already over. I wish I wasn't like this. I wish I could sit down and write for five minutes without the feeling of overwhelming dread washing over me. I wish I could just write everything I want to write without worrying whether or not it's worth it.
I want to apologize to everyone who has decided to follow me over the years. Maybe the pressure is getting to me. Maybe I'm just falling out of love with writing. I sincerely hope not, because it's been my lifelong dream to be a published author. I just don't have the necessary tools to push myself there, and I don't know where to look.
This isn't me saying I'm quitting. This is just me apologizing for making you wait, and thanking everyone who has had the patience to deal with my bullcrap over the years.
Sorry again, and here's to a hopefully better new year.
If you want to be a writer, you must write. You must write a LOT, many hours, most days, even if you’re not really feeling it. It’s sort of like most jobs in that way. You’re never going to get rich here on our little fanfic site (although a few do pay a few bills on Patreon), but it’s a great place to practice your skills. You’ve already built a decent audience here with your very first chapter, you’ll never get a better chance to be a real storyteller than right now.
If you cant write this, write something else. The creative urge can be like a muscle, and sometimes you can overstress certain areas. So if you can't write for this story without feeling dread, work yourself up to it with something you can write with ease.
It doesn't need to be narrative. It could just be a description of something - take your time, and really draw it out: create a word-picture. It could be a description of a process or a happening: have you ever read how people used to describe sporting events in newspapers before radio? Those were stories all on their own.
In short, write something that you can start and finish in one sitting.
As the other guy said: you're not going to make money writing fanfiction. And, if anyone was being honest, you probably won't make much money as a published author. So do it for yourself, and have fun with it.
... and here's something apropos on the difficulty of writing sometimes. Sometimes expressing yourself is all the story necessary.
Maybe take some time to jot down the things that you feel are holding you back, frustrations, all that. Don't even think about solutions until you got them down.
Take a break, then come back and work on what you can do about them.
Sometimes there's nothing you really can do, and that's just life, but just being able to point and glare at your issues does help, especially if you're feeling dread.
Cheers to a better new year; I want to say it can't be any worse, but it can always be worse.
Tried caffeine? Coffee and energy drinks work pretty well for me when I feel that way. Unfortunately, they're addictive. If you use them very much, you will eventually have to detox for a little while, during which you end up even less productive than normal. At least that's how it works for me.
Well damn, I was wondering what the name of that fic was. I had actually read Head in a vise a while ago and was trying to find it again but low an behold your the mind behind 2 stories I'm tracking. That and Frey'd are the beginnings of 2 really interesting stories IMO. Writers block can be a pain I imagine but not doing so because of what others may think is just silly. Gotta do you ✌