Nov
20th
2022
I'm tired. · 1:26am Nov 20th, 2022
TW: Mentions of self-harm and suicide
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I can't do this anymore. I just feel like I don't matter anymore, to anyone. Haven't been able to muster the passion to write, or for anything else worth doing. I just want it all to end.
Nearly let a bus hit me a while back. It missed, though I don't really know how I feel about that. Part of me wishes it didn't.
Stories will be late. Sorry for the inconvenience.
Ery!
Why didn't you just come to me?!
I'm always here for you and I always thought you were special đź’–
Just take your time and breath. I had the same feeling when I was working on my stories. And don’t let such negativity enter your life.
Things always get better with time, it's important to stay hopeful. Even the darkest nights are followed by the dawn.
We love you and want you to be happy because you're a great person.
I listen to you if you want to talk
Please, don't give up. You matter, you are really important for your family and your friends. Don't let sadness take control over your life.
The Lord smiles down on you and loves you!
Come to know Jesus, and you will get peace that He ALONE can give!!!
He is waiting with open arms!
Here's a song for you and because you are A DIAMOND
You matter, I promise. You're worth anything and everything.
Being unable to write is fine, you shouldn't feel the need or have to write anything. I'm sure when you started it was just out of fun, inspiration and hope. Not having that drive doesn't mean your any less of a person nor any less value to keep going. I don't know you and you don't know me, but trust me, not wanting to write is completely normal and you shouldn't devalue yourself for it. Let yourself get comfortable with the thing you like more, when you want to try and write just make up a silly story. Find that passion in your life and if it doesn't ignite like wanting to write then figure out what you want in life.
Don't give up on yourself! You are a one of kind gift to this world, who inspires all who read her stories. You are a child of God, reflecting His light towards everyone you meet. Stay determined, so we can all enjoy the true ending...
Speak to us, Ery. Please?
You may never see it but we all matter to someone and I am not talking religion or anything like that
I know what it's like to not write or do anything productive. I still haven't written anything.
But people like you and me still have so much to live for. We have plenty of time. The future has endless possibilities, don't give up.
Everyone matters. Dont force yourself to write. Take a break and let yourself breathe.
Whoa now, we all get those feelings every now and then, the best thing to do is to get help and try and power through it.
You do matter. You have my support if you need it.
Please don’t. I promise, someday, you will feel better and you’ll be glad that you didn’t do it.
Not again....
Seriously: Can we stop it with the suicides already?!!!!
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Rude. We have a mental health crisis.
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Sorry.
This threw me off guard a bit. ^^'
We’re all here for you, you DO matter. Never forget that. You ever need to talk to anyone, message literally anyone here and we’d be more than happy to be there to support you
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That’s fine. Next time think before you type. This type of thing needs to be handled very delicately.
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To everyone who has reached out, you all have my sincerest thanks. Words can't do justice what I yearn to express to you all, so all I can do is say thank you for helping me see through my darkness, even for just a moment.
I guess I arrived at that mindset due to everything going on. I've been losing friends near and dear to me, friends whom I thought would stick by my side till the end. My medication for my conditon doesn't seem to be doing much anymore, and our family's been in some serious debt as of late. We're just trying to make ends meet.
I know that we all have insecurities in some way or another, and I'm sure we're all familiar with that crippling, gnawing feeling that tells us we'll "never be good enough". This is something I'm sure we all struggle with.
Just knowing that there are people out there who understand is comforting. All of you, thank you. That is about all I can say.
I'm really sorry for the scare, but it scares me more what I could've done had I not opened up. So to reiterate, I thank you all. Truly.
- Eryn
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You know I'm always here for you.
Know for 100% fact that I'd never leave you hanging!
You do matter. Many would miss you if you were gone.
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Of course, any time
I don't have much to say to be honest. You were one of the first authors that I started to follow. One of those that gave me this little push to write my own stories. I don't really know how hard it was for you, but just think about those who value you. Think about those that will be hurt. I'm pretty sure there are a lot people that DO care about you.
you know... I'm in a similar situation rn but since I know that I will get a job soon, the situation has been stabilised... suicide is not an option and never has been. You may have a problem in your personal life but for every problem there's always a solution. I repeat myself!!! SUICIDE IS NOT AND NEVER HAS BEEN AN OPTION!!!
I did you give my follow (I hope that cheers you up a bit)
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Dully noted.
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Heaven rejoices at your reconciliation!
You should probably get some sunshine and exercise regularly, it will boost your mood a lot. If you're interested in gaining muscle, try the gym; because that also boosts mood and confidence. You could socialize with people who are positive, this will make their positivity rub off on you, causing you to become happier. Try eating better, too.
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Usually when the world tells me “You’re not good enough!” I like to respond with, “Good! That just means I still have a goal to achieve, and more stuff to distract me from my own depressing thoughts! Knowing how to be good enough already would just be boring as hell, and make me in even worse shape, because it takes out the mystery and intrigue of Self-Improvement!”
That, and not being good enough for something, or even everything, simply opens the opportunity to reach out as you’ve done!
In overwhelming odds? Absolutely! You may never be good enough! But that’s okay, because WE, You AND Us, can be, and even more than, good enough to overcome those odds!
We’re all humans here after all, and humans have been born and raised as “Pack Creatures” since the very beginning of our time on this Earth! How else do you think our ancestors could take on a single freakin’ Mammoth? Certainly not alone, that’s for sure!
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You're welcome. I pray you have a bright future and until then, you have our support, trooper.
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Yeah, that's the thing about meds. They stop working.
Heeey, I know I'm late to the conversation, but I hope you're doing okay. I've been where you are and I even tried to end it all but neither self-harm or offing yourself will help anyone. You matter. Anyone that says otherwise is an idiot.