It’s Been Fun · 3:26pm Apr 20th, 2019
As of today, April 20th 2019 I will no longer be logging into my account. While I doubt anybody will notice, or even care. In the odd chance somebody comes to my page looking for me, this’ll address why I won’t be here.
I joined this site five years ago, during a time of my life where I had never belonged to a community before. The presence of everybody here, all the stories I read, all my interactions with the user base of this site filled a void in my being that helped push me through some of the most difficult moments I’ve experienced in my 21 years thus far.
The need for that however passed quite a while ago, I found myself in the last two years making a lot of changes to my attitude, and my way of thinking about myself and my life and I realized that all the things that constantly pound at my sanity are just in my head and I don’t need to let them control my life.
I haven’t watched the show since season 4, only reason I continued to read the fan fiction was because I liked people’s personal touches on the universe more than the writers of the show. But even now, I haven’t been able to read a full story without becoming disinterested in a long time.
For whatever reason my love for the show, this site and the community faded over time. I think as my interest for the outdoors and my longing to see the world and experience adventure grew.
I’m saving up for a van I’m going to convert, I’ve centered my education around a skill that will allow me to work remotely and I’m going to take off one day for the horizon and never look back.
I had some rocky moments here on fimfiction, about 2 1/2 of my years on here were spent banned because I had faked an illness for attention. An illness that many people deal with personally everyday, either because they themselves or somebody they know or love does.
I lost a number of relatives to it during that time and since and I realized how much of a piece of shit I was to use it for such a childish and selfish reason.
I’ve grown and developed much since then, a long ways to go still before I feel I will be the person that I want to.
I want to thank each and every person with whom I interacted here from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for everything, I will always remember my fond memories of here.
Jared out
See you space VanBoy