I'm not sure what I'm feeling. Philosophical? Maybe that's it. I don't really see myself having a midlife crisis, or rather I got it out of the way in my mid-twenties while examining the existential horror of one day ceasing to exist. It's probably easier for folks with faith, but either way I no longer fear that particular inevitability. Honestly it'll be a load off in pretty much every way possible. Between then and now though? I figure I've got a few more of these to go.