life upate

now i've not been around for awhile as usual. i've had a rough time lately. why i've had a rough time is that my grandmom's been in the hospital for awhile (she's home now). she couldn't go to the bathroom for a few days but she's better now (before they putted a heart catheter in her back and she had that removed she didn't have a heart attack her arm was sore so my mom told me it wasn't a heart attack i just don't know what it was cause i've been trying to block it out of my mind). i didn't mention about this as i felt too nervous to tell. and i've not been able to sleep or eat as much (i got so worried of fear of losing her). i've sweated in my bed that's how worried i was. my grandmom's really been there for me for much of my life. and this august is where my grandpop died 5 years ago and i just thought the worst. but she's getting back to herself again so i'm happy for that. i promise there will be stuff to come when i can come up with things in my head.