Is this going to be a long post? (Yes) · 8:06am Jun 19th, 2013
Wow. I missed my 1 year anniversary here by 12 days... oops! Well, better late then never.
But one year and 12 days ago I was awake...wide awake, much like tonight. I couldn't sleep a wink and wanted to write something but didn't know what. Finally, I just listened to some immediate music and different PMVs.
Then, I got a picture. A woman who called herself Celestia sat in a mental hospital crying, scared. I wrote the first five chapters until dawn finally came. I don't remember when I submitted the first chapter but I think it showed up by 10pm that night. I specifically joined this site just to post the first chapter of "Believing Stories" using the first picture I found on the internet of an insane asylum room.
Somehow I had almost 200 likes before midnight and no downvotes...somehow I was featured the first day I signed up here. While I wrote many other stories of better quality (and rewrote the original...) nothing will surprise me as that first night did. And now for a bit of a backstory which some of you know. While things have changed between me and this person I still think there may be someone who can learn from my example.
The thing is: someone I trusted very much manipulated me. I gave up writing because that person convinced me that writing was a waste of my ability. He told me that writing wasn't good enough for the person I should become and that I had a greater responsibility (read: what he enjoyed doing and got praise for doing.) He once even told me "I just don't care" when I was all excited about something I was working on. But, even after I gave that up I still was turned over so he could spend time with his other group of friends... these friends are probably what influenced him the most to try and fit me into a predetermined mold. It doesn't excuse him...but there was a lot of hurt he refused to handle and that was how he "dealt" with it: tell someone else that they have to endure the same pressure you have to live under.
But basically...we ended contact with each other and I was still recovering last summer. I wanted to write but...it's so easy to tell yourself it's not worth it; that no one wants to read what you want to write. I expected to get a few views and have a few people say a generic "Ah, I liked this." or a lengthy explanation of how I had failed the literary world (those came later. lol. but's let's just say my classes made me somewhat paranoid.)and ponydom in general. I never expected what you have all given to me. You helped me realized that I can write even though I still have a lot to learn. I've made so many friends here and through skyping people I met here. There are so many of you who have helped me in reali life more than you realized. I believe I've grown more as a writer here than I have in the classroom (well, except maybe for poetry writing...but that's another story.)
I hope I can come back soon from my pony burnout which has extended to writer's burnout. I'm just not having a late night hit of inspiration that keeps me up at unreasonable hours. Maybe when I get a job and no longer have any time 
Love you all,
Type
You should go to Bronycon so we can slap each other silly.
Yes, I still remember that blog, and it's currently looking like I'll be going over there. You should too!
First of all, happy year a versary! I'd give you a muffin but last time I tried that I punched through my computer and had to get stitches in my hand from the cuts. Anyways, I know the hardships of writers block and lack of motivation. And while I can't say it'd work for you, when I did get my job I started getting more idea and started writing more because I felt like I was wasting time if I didn't. If you're in lack of an idea then maybe collab with someone. Read some stories to maybe spark your creative juices again, and not just pony fictions, real books and/or comics.
Never stop writing, Type! And don't let anyone tell you what to do! (Except what I just said, it's possibly good advice)
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Now that you have all my cheers, congratulations on the one year anniversary! You write some great crazy pony and deserved such awesome fanbase. Just remember to throat punch the next pony who tells you not to [insert cheesy phrase about following your heart here.]
I can't wait to see "Notes" and what ever else you write next. Maybe watching all four seasons of Adventure Time just once more will end the pony burnout?
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Oh no! Ponies have invaded Adventure Time too!
Here, have a hug for your anniversary on the site!
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Looking forward to another year of your awesome writing!
I remember where Believing stories was first posted. Normally I don't read those fics but something was telling me to do it, so I have it a look. And now here we are! Hope to see more from you!
I think the fact that you had the strength and have the strength to move on is pretty telling of your character and I for one am willing to wait because your product -- especially in your rewrite of Believing Stories -- is well worth the wait.
I've been suffering writer's burnout as well (hard to tell as I don't publish ponyfic!) so I definitely feel you on that account. My inner voice is just as nasty as yours, I wonder if it's a common thread in situations like this. In any case I understand that as well.
I'm sorry you doubt yourself. You really, really shouldn't. You're easily one of my favorite authors on this site and that's mostly because you strike me as the type to take risks that ultimately work due to your innate understanding of the craft (Believing Stories, The Alicorn Disability). Whenever you feel up to it, we'll be here.
1153894 I'm trying! There is the slimmest chance I might but I do not know yet!
1153903 oh so now I have to listen to you? Huh?? *laughs* jk :P
1154056 At/MLP?....I would so watch that show if it existed.....
1154104 thanks for the...hug? lol
1154158 Thanks :3
1154425 Thank you so much. I think I often doubt myself as a form of protection. I do need to work on that and I plan on it.