Good news...and then some (a post that might be TMI) · 5:31am Jul 14th, 2013
Well, the good news is I found out what was causing my computer to run so slowly. I was using all but maybe 1/6th of my hard drive for storage. So now I'm going through my folders, deleting all the old junk I kept throughout college, getting rid of all the videos except for a select few and seeing just how many screenshots I took are actually usable as wallpapers from various Disney movies and cartoon shows.
And then I find folders of pictures with my ex and me.
Honestly... I am fine most of the time. The breakup needed to happen. It's almost been a year actually and I kinda forget about it honestly until something like this comes up. I'm actually having fun being single right now. But, finding those old pictures again and all the music and notes he sent me... It brings back memories of him telling me he had already picked out the ring. Along with that all the times he called me desperate for trying to stay with him, and a monster for trying to break up with him because "breaking up is not an option." Since then he's apologized and accepted my apologies and whenever I talk to him I keep having to forgive him over and over.
I feel like there is a fist pressing down on my heart. There's just this pressure there that keeps building until I start crying even though I've been over him for months.
I'll be fine tomorrow. Tonight, it hurts.
Ever need a friend, you know who to talk to.
~Skeeter The Lurker
1210022 Thanks. I'm actually heading to bed now but thanks. I do need to get some sleep. I'll let you know if that changes.
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Haha, well, you know me. Almost always on.
Present at the time? Whole 'nother story.
~Skeeter The Lurker
If it helps, allow me to offer some advice:
It may be a little weird for someone like me to say this, but humans have a lot more in common with --->
than one would normally think.
We all have a special talent that we keep either to ourselves or out in the open for all to see. Some have similar talents; others are a gem on their own.
When I read your stories, you know what I see? A diamond among sapphires: a gem among gems that shines brighter than the ones around it.
My advice to you is this: take your emotions, whatever they may be, and channel them, flesh them out onto paper (or MSWord, as the case may be).
And yes, I realize that this was over a year ago (correct me if I'm wrong), but I feel like everyone deserves something like this: a little nudge from a friendly face to let them know they aren't alone, that there is always someone close by with whom they can relate with, cry with, laugh with, scream in reckless abandon with.
You aren't alone. For what it's worth, you'll always have the rest of us to turn to in times of distress. You'll always have a shoulder to cry on, someone to lean on, share your thoughts and ideas with, and just have fun around. So keep your chin up. Dust yourself off, raise your sights to the heavens and say, "There is nothing that can keep me down for long. I will always rise to the challenge and surpass my own expectations, for I am me, and nothing in this world can change that or take that away."
Aw, well, we are here for you Jessy if you want to take your mind off things... We have cookies and a fridge full of chocolate milk.
Aww....Type...*hugs* I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm sorry I don't know how to say anything better than that. Sleep is probably a really good idea, though. Just stop being conscious for a while. As I type, I know you already went to bed...so I'm not sure why I'm still talking. A lot of people over here love you, so never forget what an awesome person you are ever!
Type, if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me.
This may be Regidar's job, but...
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Ok, first of all, I have no clue who went through and downvoted all your comments.
Second of all...
*HUGS*
Thanks :) It still hurts a little today but it's better now.
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Here, let me hug you awkwardly.
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*gently offers a shoulder to cry on and tissues* As much as I'll agree it hurts like hell, it's not so bad to just let it out y'know? Better than bottling it up. I wish it didn't hurt, you're too awesome to se too sad methinks.
1210477 :3 *hugs Twilight*
1210541 *get hugged awkwardly*...thanks
1210620 Thanks, it's always awkward though because I don't like dumping all my problems on someone when they're not expecting it. It's often easier to tell myself "You'll just get annoying if you tell someone else" and don't say anything.
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Just keep what we've said in mind and your troubles will be the last thing on it.
It's always weird running across reminders of old relationships when you aren't expecting them. But time heals all wounds...
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I'll try.
1210774 It does. It has become a lot easier for me to handle since then :)
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Type, this is for you right now. And whenever else you need it.
1211106 *heart explodes*
1210699 *Nods and huggles* Believe me I know that. what you need to remember though is even if we're just voices and text on a screen, every single one is connected to a real person who does honestly care. (Even if it's just that you're happy so more pony words can happen
)
Either way, maybe try and work on reminding yourself that your feelings are important.
1213526 Thank you