Untitled · 9:49pm Sep 7th, 2016
I'm not sure what to title this blog due to the content. Putting a break because of personal/family baggage.
At 4:29 PM today, I was responding to an email from the captain of my men's recreational league team telling him that I was good to play tonight. Work was decent today. Nothing really special, just a normal Wednesday lunch shift. Everything went smoothly, there was no drama at the restaurant (for once).
At 4:30 PM I got a text from my dad. It read thusly: "Pat has just passed away."
Pat was my maternal grandfather, the subject of a few of my recent blogs. He died in hospice in his own home, surrounded by his children. His last few days were spent sleeping due to the morphine they gave him to help dull the pain, but he was at least able to have what little time left out of the hospital and in the home he loved.
I'm not entirely sure what to call my feelings right now. On one hand, I'm sad that he's gone. On the other, I'm relieved that he's no longer in pain.
Dunno. Can't describe the feeling at all. Imagine that, eh? Someone as overly wordy as me, who goes on and on to describe stupid things in his writing can't figure out how to talk about his own feelings. There's a joke in there somewhere, I'm sure. I'll probably find it once I gather myself a little more.
I had a similar experience with my maternal grandmother. Feel you, bro.
You feel soft.
i know how you feel in the happy and sad department i'll miss you grandma that i never knew
I've been there before. It hurts to see them go now, but just remember that they loved you and wouldn't want themselves to be seen as an anchor.
I'm sorry, man.
Much of life is bittersweet.
Take your time, don't judge feelings they come but just let them happen, and may peace find you.
Im sorry man
*Hugs the Zomgfluff.*
I'm sorry to hear. :(
Hu I'm sorry for your loss. I just lost my maternal grandfather a couple of Saturday's ago myself. Thankfully he went peacefully. I think I can understand what you are feeling somewhat at least. And honestly like you said part of what's helping is knowing that our loved ones are no longer in pain.
I guess all I can do is offer you my condolences.
-BFBL
*hugs tight* I'm here for you if you need me... After all you were there for me when grandp died.
I'm sorry, dude. Losing a grandparent is hard, even if you aren't super close.
Take some time to relax and process. We'll be here when you get back, or if you want to talk.
I'm sorry, Zomg.
I know what you mean though. For all the words I've written and characters I've written for, I can never find the words to describe my own feelings. I think it's something many writers deal with.
My condolences. That's a hard set of emotions to deal with. I know that all too well.
I'm very sorry for your loss. *sends hugs and best wishes*
At least you knew him. One more person to carry his memory on and to help share the burden of his loss.
My condolences, I feel your sadness. Maternal grandparents passed when I was very young, don't remember them. In my teens paternal grandpa passed and I fainted at his funeral ceremony (that broke 3 of my uncle's monotony as they carried me out the church to recover). Paternal grandma passed a year or 2 later and cried my eyes out as they lowered the coffin, I missed her, she was a real character, taught me some of the German i know and shared some of her baking skills. Made the best German coffee cake & banana cake you ever tasted. 30 years on still reminisce, might sound a little cliched but as long as you remember them they are never really gone. Take it easy friend.
My sympathies for you and yours, Zomg. Take all the time you need for your family and yourself, and we'll be here when you return. *high fives*
It's always difficult to lose someone. Sadly most memories come at cost. My condolences.