I feel weird today. · 6:33am May 6th, 2017

I don't know how to explain it... I guess It feels like emptiness mixed with loneliness. It's like I'm missing something in my life. Today I went to work, feeling alright. I was talking to my Co workers and everything was fine, But right when I got home, All these feels started to get to me for some reason. I also don't feel like doing what I love everyday when I get home from work(Video games, Youtube.) I'm just not feelin' it tonight I guess. It feels like I need to cry, but I don't... I don't know, It's weird. I feel weak for some reason too. I have this feeling inside me that feels like guilt, mental pain, and sadness at the same time, But I can't quite describe it well. So, right now I'm home alone, and Just sitting in my computer chair just waiting for all these feelings to eventually go away. So anyways, I moved out of my friend's house finally about 2 weeks ago, because I was so tired of that shit. I was always being stepped on, ignored, and being treated differently. And Now I'm living with my mom, But tomorrow's going to be a big day, Because I'm moving out of my mom's place, and going to live at her friend's house as well as paying her $350 rent every month. It's going to be a much better place instead of sleeping on the couch uncomfortably at my mom's cramped up house. Another thing that's going to bother me is, That this new place i'm moving too, well It was the place that I lived in back when I was a senior in high school. I think it was one of the most best times of my life, because I use to be in a cool group of friends. We all hung out, and played video games, shared the same interests and everything was so good back then. Now, I'm going to be stuck in that place for a long time. All of my friends moved different cities and such, And I know it sounds dumb to be dreading about friends, But I feel like I'm still going to be miserable and empty since those are the ever real friends I had. I also feel i'm pathetic because I'm going to be stuck in that place, and everybody else has moved on, and most likely living good right now. Maybe I feel lonely??