'Nother update on me · 10:06am Aug 27th, 2017
In all seriousness everything is looking alright right now and I don't want to say anything further in case I jinx it lol.
I jinxed it.
This month so far, my car broke down, i got turned down a promotion at work and other general life things suck. I'm not too bothered by those. they're little inconveniences at this point in time.
What has hit me the hardest, this week alone, was the revelation that my dad has Myeloma. A form of blood cancer. It's treatable but not curable, meaning that he can get rid of it briefly but it will always come back. The cancer breaks down the structure of his bones and stops it from regrowing/strengthening. It also limits the amount of blood cells in his body, as well as a few other things. That in itself has been hard to deal with.
But then something else happened, something i never really saw coming. With my dad's health there was always the chance that something like that was going on, it's been said in passing by doctors before but was only really confirmed once they did tests. It still sucks but it didn't hit me that hard because I could see it coming.
No what hit me was the death of Positivity of Positivity Hyno, or Kavi to some. On the 25th of August she took her own life. That news, that news hit me like a freight train full of explosives running over a cliff. For those who knew her she was a bubbly, shitposting, caring and loving person who made it her goal to make sure other people knew they were loved in one way or another. She grew a community from nothing, hundreds of people all joined together thanks to her. She'd been suffering for a while it seems: receiving death threats, swattings, doxxings, bloody assassination threats from trolls and arseholes. I guess that was too much for her to bare.
So she's gone. As hard as that is to write, she's gone.
She used to do song requests. The link below is probably the only recording of her ever doing so, as far as i'm aware.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B9eOm2cqj3dZNEpZVDBmMWFza3M/view
For me the last few days have been an emotional roller coaster. I've not been able to stop myself from crying. My eyes are just sore and I just feel empty. I regret even going in to work yesterday, spent the first half hour of my shift crying and the rest just barely holding myself together.
*hugs you tight* I'm so sorry my friend