New Developments, New Stories · 2:41pm Aug 11th, 2020
So, if anyone has read the previous blog, you'll know that I submitted myself to the emergency department with fears of self-harm, suicide and homicide brought on by an unsustainable and harmful relationship with my mother. I was transferred from that hospital to a mental health ward in the capital city of my state, where I spent just over two weeks recovering. My antidepressants were increased to twice the dose, I received help from the resident social worker and welfare officer in finding temporary accommodation where I could stay upon discharge, and I got in touch with my cousin and two friends I haven't really seen since high school.
Things have been turning around gradually. My ego is fragile at points, despite the medication, and my mood can swing wildly, but at least I can say that I am now in a safe place. My de facto aunt -- my mother's friend -- was willing to take me in, and I'm currently living with her and her nephew, and she has promised that I won't be pressured into reuniting with Mum until I'm ready, and that I can stay as long as I like. This is honestly more than I thought I'd ever be receiving: a bed, a room of my own to furbish, wi-fi without a data limit, Netflix, XBONE with Game Pass, and all for the low price of $72/week.
I don't remember if I mentioned it in the previous blog, but I've put all of my studies on hold so that I can adjust to these changes. Buying my own food, planning my own meals, washing my own clothes -- ironing them at some point -- it's all new to me, and it's hard to fulfill my duties when I'm so easily distracted by just about everything. That being said, I'm sure I'll be able to do this, and I think I've accidentally stumbled into what is the right choice, and the right environment, where I can learn to be slightly more independant, without worrying about being kicked out. I can make mistakes here, and that's a good thing.
In short, my circumstances are better. All that remains is fixing myself -- undoing the damage that depression has and is still causing.
Now, enough about my boring self, so with that update out of the way, let's move onto the main attraction, for those whose interests might be piqued: two new stories featuring pahňázd's R63 self-insert original character, Hotkey.
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Okay, they're technically the same story, but I can explain. You see, this started off as an ERP he and I did in early June, and I figured that I could adapt it into a fully-fledged clopfic. We toyed with the idea of expanding it with a sequel, in the same way that Damage Control spawned A Lapse of Reason, where the overarching theme would be the dangers of a rebound relationship, but it wasn't until Admiral Biscuit finished his editing pass that I decided how I'd publish this.
So, here's a quick explanation:
- More Than Just the Night is the actual story -- the meat and bones, focussed on the themes I wish to explore with our two lead characters.
- What We Do in the Dark is like the bonus features disk you get with a movie's DVD, full of content that seemed like a good idea at the time, but didn't make it into the final product because it was either unnecessary, or clashed with the tone, pacing or themes of the main story.
- Night can be read without reading Dark, but the chapter(s) in Dark won't make much sense without reading the correspending chapter(s) in Night.
- I cannot guarantee Dark will see any updates as this largely depends on where pahňázd and I go with each chapter; it shall remain marked as incomplete until Night is finsihed.
Due to my condition and the nature of how this story will be written, all I can say is that this will take a long while to complete, though I'm sure won't be nearly as bloated as A Lapse of Reason. Going forward, More Than Just the Night won't be a major focus; I'll return to it when I feel like it. There are two contests I intend to enter before the end of August anyway, and overdue promises to other friends I ought to fulfill.
Also, this was meant to be a birthday present for both pahňázd and The Cloptimist, but hospital shut that down pretty hard. Send them your best wishes. They seem to be good, although utterly depraved, people.
Here's to hoping this heralds a comeback. Don't call it that, though, because I've always been here, just really, really quiet. And lonely.
Ah, the great irony of my life. I can write romance, drama and decent clop, but I've never been in any kind of relationship besides a myriad of one-way crushes in primary school. Virgin game on point, yo.
That is all.
Fuck'n cheers mate!
Writing aside, I'm just so glad to hear that your life has gotten better! All this time when I would tell you to 'hang in there', and 'it gets better', those were never empty platitudes. Because as long as you are living, life has a chance to get better. And here is the proof!
Don't worry about deadlines. You just take care of you, man. Everything else will follow. And we will still be here. That being said, I'm right there with you, hoping that this indeed heralds a return to writing for you, with you being in a better place, physically and emotionally, to let your creative wings fly once more!
The fact that your life seems to be going better is great news. Best wishes towards it getting better as time progresses!
This is wonderful news, dude. You're a good person and an extremely valued friend, and it's great to have you back.
Glad to hear things are going in the right direction for ya.
Te escribo en mi idioma para demostrar que tu influencia va mas allá, impactas en muchas personas de diferentes lugares, la vida no es sencilla y mucho menos facil, pero vale la pena por esos pequeños momentos.
Me alegro que estes mejor, y aunque no lo parezca, muchos esperan tu mejoría.
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Glad to hear things are going better for you, and good luck going forward. :)
Well, the direction your life's in is the right one now. Keep that fire lit; you've more than earned this turnaround.
And like Shakes said - the show goes on on your authority and yours alone. All we can do is be there for you. Which I swear that I will.
Sorry to hear about the strained relations in your family. Amazing that you still find the energy to write despite this (though perhaps it is theraputic for you?). I find it interesting that you got a story out of an RP.
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Happy to see you're doing alright, this world is much better with you in it.
Take care of yourself, Freglz, and best of luck.
Well heck, I'm glad things are looking up for you. :D Take care of yourself first, you should be fine.
Very happy to hear that you've been given quite a bit of kindness. Continue to stay safe, Freglz. All the best.
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Muchos gracias, amigo.
Good to hear. Work on your independence. Work on normal things like laundry and cleaning. I'm not saying to drown your sorrows in work, but I am saying it's good to have something to focus on. A goal, preferably.
NOW I understand why there's two stories, I guess I look forward to reading them at a later date, and may the force be with and lead you well Freglz.
It's always good to be better.