Have a sore on left ear that has forced me to take a break from wearing headphones. Been 2 days already, and it heals slowly. Frustrating.

Weather is getting nice and cold, and will probably get even colder as December comes up. Looking forward to it.

Still tired, but vigilance (fear, but tempered with cold logic and made useful) has kept me alive. Preferable to dying.

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Even though I don't really have much to say anymore. Oh well, I'm writing this on a whim.

To sum up my current life situation: I have no job, no life, and very few friends. I'm lazy, good for nothing, and tired.

I have doubts as to whether anyone will find this blog post, let alone read it. Not even sure why I'm even writing this, really.

There's really not much else to say. Most of my 'blog style' writing is posted on my deviantArt profile.

Here's a link again, in case it was missed previously: My deviantArt profile page.

I still take my usual 30mg of Adderall XR each morning as well. I feel very calm, and in control of myself. My emotions are very subdued right now, which is the effect I going for when I requested the antidepressant from my doctor. They aren't completely suppressed, but this is an excellent start.

If this pattern continues, I may request that the dose be increased further, with the intention of suppressing my emotions completely.

So, with my former living quarters currently undergoing renovations, and with my usual bed and mattress currently lacking any space to use them (our house isn't that large), I have been sleeping less soundly than I'm accustomed to.

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I've recently begun to understand one of the biggest reasons that I'm extremely reluctant to write any potential fanfiction story—MLP or otherwise:

Because I'm terrified of being widely recognized or known for anything. Whether that publicity is 'good' or 'bad' is irrelevant to this fear, because it would still result in me having more exposure than I'm ever used to—or comfortable—having.

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I'm very much a winter person, being much more fond of the cold over the sweltering heat of summer.

To make me 'warm', the environment must first become cold. Ironic perhaps, but I don't give a freezing fuck; it's WINTER.

May the butts of winter-haters literally freeze off their behinds, while I simply take the chill in stride, and with a full winter outfit on.

I don't post blog entries terribly often here, because I'm more active on deviantArt in that regard.

Here's my Deviant page:
http://taltharius.deviantart.com/

Yes, my avatar and profile image are the same as here; our late family cat Misty (14 years old, she was a strong and capable cat).

I don't post much in the way of visual art. Most of my submissions are based in writing; thoughts, feelings, reflection, speculation, and others.

Months have already gone by, and I've actually lost complete interest in attempting to write it.

Ugh; something tells me that I would have been better off just making a one-shot and being done with it. I'm better at making short, improvised scenes and dialogue; long-term story planning is truly beyond my capacity.

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...I'm pretty much scrapping most of the currently written, unreleased story, and reworking it into a sort of comedy fanfiction. I already have too much sadness in real life as it is.

Making a more humour-oriented MLP fanfiction sounds WAY more fun anyhow. As the TF2 Spy once said (after Dominating a Medic):

"Laughter really IS the best medicine!!"