Chapter 8 is Out and an Attempt to Turn a New Leaf for Me

Oh my gosh, why did I do that? You know what I did last weekend? Wrote. I wrote like... a lot. I basically channeled the time I used to spent gaming in MMOs to grind out levels to grind out words. I think I spend a combined 20 to 30 hours writing. Since I've gotten the help from a few others, I feel like I can just go. Editor, Proofreader, and Prereaders really sped up my output. Great for productivity, but this must be unsustainable. The work is fun, but it's still work. I'm pretty sure I'll burn myself somehow from the mental over-exertion.

So, King has agreed to be not only my pre-reader, but someone to keep me in physical shape. Accountability. Which is why I am going to say this publically in the hopes that I will actually do it this time.

There's a lot of places I draw from to experience my characters. My writing tools are mindfulness and empathy and try to process how I would feel given what they've gone through in their lives, be it positive or negative experience. There's a very useful well filled with negativity that is a reflective pool. I can look into it and see what I hate about myself to experience my character's personal inadequacies and, to a lesser extent, their traumas. It all stems from how I've always felt about my real-life, pudgy self. I won't go too deep since you might find a bit more about Fancy Pants than I want you to know at this point in time vicariously through me, but there is one line in Electro Swing that I did not have to change at all from my mouth to his.

“Simply put, I honestly don’t see what she gains from saddling herself with me.”
- Rego Fancy Pants, Chapter 22

I've never taken good care of my physical health. I've got a body molded by years of video games. Since I've cut gaming out almost entirely at this point, maybe it'll be easier to pick up excercising. It's one of the reasons I've never dated anyone. I know I'm Ace in sexuality, but I'm not aromantic. I know I can offer a lot of things to someone, but physically? I'm utterly deficient and haven't bothered to work on bettering it. It's not to say I "getting fit will fix me." I'm not Hal Stewart from Megamind. It just means I can be a healthy partner to someone if I find someone here in Japan.

Anyway, that was a lot of sharing and vulnerability on display. No, not fishing for sympathy, but accountability. Lots of folks are quick to go the therapy route, but trust me, I just wrote the situation I think therapy is absolutely required for. You can read about it in Chapter 8!

See you in the next blog!
- Rego

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[PhycoKrusk]

Getting fit doesn't "fix" anybody; all it does is show them paths they never noticed before.