Back, for real this time · 12:16pm Dec 3rd, 2013
let me just start this off by saying... I apologize. I TRULY MEANT to have updates up by the end of last month, but every time I started writing, I found myself coming up blank no matter how I altered my work, so tonight I'll be splitting BANL's next chapter up for each character, making shorter chapters, but still giving you something to read.
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Dare I ask what's wrong?
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Shorter chapters. Also, HOLY SHIT NEW FIMFICTION LAYOUT
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I noticed the new layout too.
It was either shorter chapters or none at all... Nervous writing makes me write much slower than i should.
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Why are you nervous?
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well, I've already told you the reasons why, honestly, and while I do appreciate that you believe in me, I am a bit tougher of a nut to crack when it comes to that... It's not easy for me to just go into something headfirst when it requires talent, focus and precision... I start doubting myself when i start writing, start thinking that I don't know enough to do the things I need to and from there it's a real shitstorm of delays and pain.
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Welp, that's not quite what I expected...
But why doubt yourself? you're doing fine so far, there's no reason to bring yourself crashing down now, keep persevering, don't let molestia bring you down!
Being professional and perfect is not the way to write. You've got to actually believe in what you're writing, as I'm doing now. Don't just write from various ideas that just randomly appear around you, because that'll bring you crashing down, causing you to start doubting yourself and eventually lead you to give up,
You have to start with a spark of inspiration, and you have to nurture that inspiration, make it grow into something more. Don't just feed it cheap ideas and emotionless feelings, feed it expensive time and meaningful love. Let it grow into what it wants to become, don't let it down, help it up.
I've completely lost the point of what I was talking about as you've probably noticed, but I haven't stopped, have I? I'm nurturing my ideas, letting them grow into what they want to be, not forcing them into something that they're not, because that will just make their spark die out.
I really hope this has helped you.
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It has, actually. more than I can say, and while I am still worried about what others may think of my work, I'm going to do my best to let go of my uncertainty. Thank you for your words and for reminding me what my original purpose for writing even was... Thanks to you, This time I'll be bullet-proof.