so... missing him... · 2:02am Jun 11th, 2014
So it finally sunk in that im really graduating. Four days of being a senior left. It also hit me that im graduating without him. And by hit... i mean hit me like a freight train in the middle of walking to work. Started bawling and it took me bout five minutes to figure out why. Those who read What Happened When He Died will know who im talking about. It feels almost wrong.. even though im at a different school.. i feel... kind of lost... what would he say to me at graduation? It would have been our last year before college. Where would he have gone? What would he be studying? Would it still be medical field?
Where has he been...? When i wanted him around.. needed him around... why wasnt he supposed to be there with me...?
I guess i was just never worth enough to have him. The universe determined i, we, were inferior and did not deserve his presence... so much ... he would have changed the world...i know it...
Wish you were here.
I know the feeling.
I can't say I understand how you feel, but I can say that you are worth it. I wish there was more I could do.