Heavy is the Heart · 10:23am Dec 7th, 2014
I can hardly believe that my last update was all the way back in June, but that's the thing about time; it doesn't stop, even when we do. It feels damning to have to present myself to you all here, yet again, with little to show for my time away except yet another feeble apology for failing to make good on my word. During my time spent away, I've received numerous messages of encouragement and praise, and for that you have my thanks, though it only makes it harder for me to even write this message, one that... should have been written sooner.
There's little cause for me to be long-winded here, and as such I will be succinct; the will to write and the passion to fuel it has been snuffed out, and I don't know if or when it will be rekindled. The ideas are there, as numerous as ever, but I cannot seem to draw them out, to put them to page and actually create as I once did. Where once there was excitement, I find only anxiety and an ever-present frustration with my inability to make notable progress, and an overwhelming exhaustion that makes it difficult to even want to try. I've been open with you guys, told you when I was struggling and often begged for understanding (which was paid to me in spades, and of which I am grateful), but I have been brought to a place where my passion has run dry. My mind works itself to exhaustion, daily pondering what was and what could be, but... the inner flame that drove me to crave the chance to sit down and write has all but been extinguished by the position I have found myself in.
I will make no pretense, and I do not want to disillusion anyone with proclamations of change. I truly, truly do desire to rekindle what once burned brightly, but I have been finding my will to write, and even my enjoyment of life as a whole, dwindling as of late. Some days, masking it is simple, and all seems well. Those days, however, have grown few and far between. This, I'm sure, isn't what any of you wanted to hear, and it pains me to return with such disheartening news. I have one last chapter written from before when I was still managing to force some writing out that I will be posting within the next day or so, one that may actually serve as the conclusion for "The Cheval Glass." It's short, it wasn't meant to be the end, and I've no doubt that it's going to be disappointing for many if it's the last thing that I publish here. I don't even know if stating "It's better than nothing" would be an accurate statement, but it does seem to be a viable place to cut short a story that I hadn't wanted to write in the first place.
...I feel like I want to say more, but I can't seem to find the words. I'm sorry, everyone, I really am.
An acceptable day has taken a turn for the depressing good luck to you in the future and know that your writing will be missed.
It's ok, those who write on their own stories will know, that creativity can someday just emanate. But I think I can say for all your followers and readers: Thank you for all your great stories and our best wishes to you.
You were and still are a brilliant writer, you don't have to worry, I believe we all understand. Even the best and most famous writers can loose there spark. It doesn't matter if you don't get yours back, you've left this site and your followers with a series that will be remembered for ages. I, and everyone I've shown your stories to, just want to wish you the best.
Sounds like you need to talk to someone about this. We're here for you. I"m sorry that your passion seems to have vanished. I can only hope one day it shall return. In the mean time, take a break from life. Go on vacation and see things you always wanted to see. For me if I went of Vacation, I would want to go and see some of the national parks and send a few days in a a couple of them camping. What I'm trying to say is we understand. We're sorry you feel this way. We hope that some day your inspiration will return.
P.S. Nice cover art.
It's understandable to not have the drive to do the thing you love most. Sometimes it's best to take a break. Take time off for as long as you need. Whether or not you continue to write for this site is up to you.
Know that you have inspired many, including myself, to create stories as well.
well, I'm happy that we have the stories that you have written already, and I will be alright if this is where it ends. I also know that I, for one, will be here for a long time, reading (and maybe writing) more pony stories. If you find your drive again, I'll be here and happily devour anything you may write. If not, then I'll at least have what you've written already to read again and again.
Be happy, because you've made us happy.
What you have created already is amazing, more than many have been able to do. I personally have been touched and moved by many of your stories because you were able to pour your heart into them. The fact that you care enough not to simply force it out speaks greatly to your character as a writer. I admire you. Should the flame reignite, I and many others will be here, ready to once again give our full support. Should it not, know that we will think no worse of you, and we wish you luck with any and all future endeavors in your life.
I understand what you're going through. I have too many Ideas and not enough words. Ours is a muse that is fickle and works odd hours. It's okay to take a break or even stop entirely, that's just how things are. The most important thing is to remember that there are people who love you and will support you even when you're at your lowest. And when things get hard, remember to believe in yourself.
Whenever I get stressed, I listen to music. I hope this helps.
Well, that sucks. No two ways about it. Your series of stories was one of the first pieces of fanfiction I ever read, and I've really enjoyed it. If you need to stop it here, so be it.
I would pose you a question, though. If you never wanted to write this story, what story DID you want to write?
Anyway, I guess all I can say is, thank you for writing. even if you never finish the series, I've enjoyed reading all of it, and I'm glad that you wrote it.
It's fine. Don't worry.
This doesn't disappoint me since you're simply being honest about your situation. You're not wrong for stopping at any point if the well runs dry. It's considerate to apologize but unnecessary for you to justify this.
I hope things improve for you soon.
It's all good greenie, we still love you.
-Mis
I do often loose the urge to write. That is simply the cost of fiction. One day, the world is encased within the palm of your meaty hands, and the next, its all drifted to space dust. I've spent hours, literally HOURS staring at a blank Microsoft Windows page, watching as my curser blinks, and blinks, and blinks. It sits stagnant and I can only hope to god that it will move again. Sometimes it will, sometimes not, but that is often my mind's decision.
I wont beat around the bush , your writing it far beyond standard expectation. I plan on reading most everything you've posted here, but the talent that you have nurtured over the years deserves more praise. I'd hate to see such a creative mind such as yours fall susceptible to illness or depression, but you are truly something special.
I recommend, possibly in hopes to fuel your creativity, wright non-pony related things. Post them on a multitude of different fictions sights. And believe me, you better get used to compliments, pal, cause shits about to hit the fan.
Point is, don't give up on this. If I didn't see such potential, I wouldn't be wasting my time here. But you have talent left untapped to a lot of people. I hope to see your writing strive like it once has. And something tells me, someday it just might.
Hey man, as I said last time we talked, if you ever need somepony to talk or vent or cry to, I'm all ears.