Hiatus (Maybe) · 11:46am Dec 25th, 2014
Dear readers,
I feel the need to make this a little formal because it's a matter that may require formality. I've been really distracted recently. Partially due to holiday parties but mostly in writing (which is what you would be interested in).
Suffice to say the number of incomplete fics I have is actually dragging me down. When I had Synch, I worked on it honestly until I completed to main arc of the fic, but now having all these other fics, it's muddling up my production queue. I'd jump to one, write a bit, jump to another, write a bit, etc. etc.
Also I've lost a lot of enthusiasm in creating new chapters for my two most popular stories as well (Poniocracy (which I tagged because it most likely affects it) and Just Roll With It). Ironically, the lesser known fics like No Tears, Dahiric and Magic Exchange is attracting me, but I feel like my focus is too scattered still. When I type the chapters for Poniocracy and Just Roll With It it no longer feels in depth and cinematic, I can't imagine the scenes with clarity like I've done before. When I get excited by an idea, my fingers fly across the keyboard and I feel like I'm watching a movie crafted only for me. It's almost frustrating that I can't keep up with recording what happens 'on-screen', but it's exciting like you're bursting with joy with a secret you want to let your friends know about. It sounds poetic and maybe it is, but this is genuinely my writing process. I 'see' the scenes play out in front of me and my writing is simply a recording of that.
To not get too bogged down with specifics, I'm not feeling it. I think I need a break from writing, which I'm deeply sorry for. I called for editors, but when it came to deliver I feel like I've breached trust.
I do have some progress on the chapters for Poniocracy and Just Roll With It, they're both sittings at around 1.5k words. About ~700 words and they would be done. A feat I could achieve in an hour or so, but it just doesn't feel right, I don't see the cinematic anymore, it feels like I'm writing from plot with just a fleshed out description. I need heart, and it's sadly lacking.
I'll let you know tomorrow if a hiatus is something I'll need to pursue, or if it just means I need to lock down to one fic and concentrate everything on it. I might leave for a while, I might not... I'll see where my thoughts take me.
As always, my treasured readers, sorry, but thanks for reading.
i Understand how you feel, i often felt the same way with my non-Fim related fan fictions, and yeah a pause is often a good way to make the thoughts flow again :)
Do what you think it's best
I agree, do what you need to do. You certainly won't be the first author to go a long time between updates. Whatever you need to do to put out quality material and be happy, do it.