Truth Be Told: Part the Final · 4:21pm Jan 1st, 2015
Funny how one moment, one little slip, can bring all of one's precious stability tumbling down. I got a little too ambitious with my secret friends and I got myself caught. My parents were ready to once again verbally beat me down in all their self-righteous fury. To their surprise, however, I didn't fight back. To be honest, I simply gave up and let them have their way. Everything they said I didn't contest.
Any account they could get their grubby mitts on was searched and deleted. Any concerned friends were dismissed with "I pray you get the help you need." Secrets came out. My little side, the comfort I retreat to, was denounced as a disgusting fetish and a sign of Satan's corruption. Still, I didn't fight back, oh no, I started to believe them. If it wasn't for the one tie left uncut, my two best friends, I would have been lost completely. To those two, I owe the world.
Where does this all leave me six months later? To the outside world, I'm on fast track to success. Going to college at 17, my own car, almost have a driver's license, plenty of money saved up, and a stable, loving family. Only a spoiled brat would complain, right? Happiness is only a facade kept up to keep my parents from attacking again. My friends and grandparents know the real me. I've sunk into a pit of hopelessness and self-hatred. I've put a gun to my head, but was too stubborn to pull the trigger.
This double life is killing me. Paranoia sets further in every day. The truth and lies are hard to tell apart. The obvious solution is to tell the truth, consequences be damned. What have I got to lose? But I can't bring myself to do it, and that's why I'm here, destroying my figers on a Kindle's arrow keys for help. It's about time the truth be told.
Well, at least you've told the truth here. But if you ask me, you need to disown your parents and move out. They clearly could care less about your well being, and believe that their religion justifies their abusive behavior towards you. If that's the case, then they don't deserve to be a part of your life.