Today... · 1:27pm Jul 17th, 2015
{Important Blog}
Author's Note: You may listen the songs given below for a more interesting read, you do not have to read with them playing if you don't want to.
Today marks the day of the twentieth year of my life...
In all these years, I've experienced the holes of light that shine down with such radiance and empowers me to go forward with hope. And I have also experienced many years of horrifying darkness. Strange and fowl beasts who creep up from the great abyss with chains to bring me down into their endless hole of pain, anger, and sorrow.
The holes of light are ever promising in that its grant me and you all as people and as human beings, life and hope, but it didn't leave out the frightening part of me having to travel through the darkest parts in order to remain in its everlasting promise. The parts were I would I fall and scrape myself, the parts were I would be hunted, the parts were I would be hated. To go through all of that to once again return into the everlasting love, life and hope of the light.
The light that place me down here and gave me a duty to find purpose. I have went through thick and thin, tough and soft, blessings and cursings, good and bad, light and dark. This constant battle, this constant struggle, this constant war all in the end for life and the blessing of many peaceful years.
I'm nearing the light, though so far off, I see it. That in and of itself is a blessed thing to know. Sometimes I had missed the mark where we were suppose to meet, but the beautiful flowers that it leaves upon the trying grounds of darkness lets me know that "It isn't far off, there's still hope. Keep on going."
....I came on this site back Sept 2013. A time where everything became extremely dark for me for the first time. It was scary, and I'm still am a little afraid to admit that. The first time darkness had taken a form that I could feel. It would torment me with nightmare after nightmare. I could have cried, but I didn't. I didn't want anyone else to know that my Cancer Shell is cracked or that I received damage, or even that I was wounded. So instead I came on here, believing that I would become one the most loved and appreciated user by just following people on after another.
I build empires after empires, and people would follow me back. I felt powerful, extremely powerful, I actually felt like a great and undefeated Empress. But I've learn and said things that were ultimately thoughtless and horrible. The higher I went the more I lost my way.
I was too high in the clouds to see down below and to know where I was going.
It was then a few people decided to help me, so that I didn't go so high and be killed by falling from such a high altitude. At first I thought they were harming me. I thought then why would an Empress like me need help? Don't they know that I have power. Sadly, I attack them out of what I thought and one of them push me to the edge. I almost thought I would've died, but that's when I turned my head down and saw down at the foundations of my great castle. I was founded upon a sandy and gravel foundation that crumbled my base.
It was when noticed that something was terribly wrong, but I was too high to accept such a reality, so I attacked them with my great power, and they did what was best for me and they let me fall down my own great castle as it finally crumbled from the inside out.
At that point, I hate them for just watching my great structure burn down, but... I also saw the amount of darkness that I was in. It was a shadow of myself. It would grin with its sinister eyes and told me that I could do such a thing as continue building and I would I would loved and that I would feel like an Empress once more, even better than I did.
I went on its words and tried to build it again, but no one came... everyone either hated me or where silent of what has become of me then. I eventually stopped building, my hopes and ambitions were broken.
I thought and took months to think of what I have done. I know now that it was wrong what I have done, but I dug up the flowers that bloomed and made me smile as long as I was alive to see them remain beautiful no matter what evils or mistakes I have made.
...I left that great empire. And here I start over. I start over again with old and new friends. I start over with the intent of now being a better user. I still have my scars and I know what I have done, and I also know that wounds will not go away easily from the ones I have hurt with the body of ignorance within me. But I want to start from this point on forward towards that light.
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Today marks the day of my birth and the birth of a new reading sorcerer who will make it a duty to reach the light once again. And to all of you who still remain with me, I thank you. It means a lot to me that I'm believed for greatness even at this very point.
Now I will carry onward and will try to do great good as a reader and writer. Hopefully, I could bring you all upon an adventurer worthwhile. Thank you.
~The Beginning Start Here
*smiles* then shall this Alicorn of light and life stand with you my friend, and share her blessings onto you.
Happy birthday.
As far as the rest of your blog... I fancied myself a great author, once. When I first came onto this site. It has been a great struggle for me to admit that I am not a mind-blowing word savant. I definitely know how you feel, how difficult it is to be able to reconcile effort and reception. My fics aren't very good, but far worse fics garner far more popularity; so, I can't say that there's any correlation between quality and popularity anyway.
Not being a popular author has very little to do with story quality. Just keep writing for those who want to read and you will become better as a consequence.
Perhaps you will be Empress over only a few. Perhaps you'll only be an Empress to yourself. That shouldn't matter; all that should matter is that you are worth something to yourself. Do what you like yourself doing, not what you think others would like you doing; you will become greater as a consequence.
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Thanks for the blessings. 
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You're right. That's what I should do and what I'm going to do. I may fall to the side but I have people to tell me I'm not doing something right. I appreciate you guys taking the time to comment.^^
Was your empire in RL or online?
3312347 Online, connect the dots if you will.
3312356 I hope it works out better this time around.
3312364 You figured it out? ...Thanks anyways.
3312366 What I gather is that you were a known user (I have a hypothesis for that, but I'm 95% sure that I'm wrong) and things got a bit overwhelming for you. So you started with another profile.
3312373 I knew it wasn't hard to figure out.^^
I noticed that my follower count had increased to 32, which I remembered as 31. So, I looked on my follower page to find who this new follower might be. Then I saw the name and avatar and recongised it immediately. It seems that our paths have crossed once more.
You and I, we both have fallen and risen. It seems that you have managed to find my new account and are now following me because you know. You know who I really am and I know who you really are. Perhaps you are confused right now. But in time you will see. In time you will realise that Crystal Secret and I are one in the same.
I wish you the best of luck on your new journey. I hope you have learnt your lesson well. If you do end up being a proofreader for Equestria Daily I would like to know. You could help me accomplish my dream. At the same time, you could accomplish one of your own. You want to be a better person right? Well...that's one way of going about it.
It's good to hear from you again Michael, even if it was a little out of the blue.
- A
3333417 Yes, Arcelia. We meet again. And yes, all I could say I guess, won't leave out the part where it still haunts me. And for being a prereader, it's the least I could do really. Nice to see you're around still.
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Well, I couldn't stay away for too long. Nowadays I find myself editing for my fellow writer alongside my studies and own writings of course. I wish to forget the past and begin anew. I think we're both mature enough to accept what has happened but then be willing to move on don't you say?
Both of us have created new names for ourselves whilst I am making a name for myself. One that represents generosity, kindness, quality and the determination and willingness to succeed.
I'm sorry the past still haunts you Michael, it saddens me to think that what happened between us has left you mentally or perhaps even emotionally scarred.
I come to you in the hopes that you find it in yourself to forgive me and to treat me as a friend, an ally and someone you can always rely on when in need of help with your stories.
- A
3333502 Well isn't scarring, but it comes back to my thoughts over a period of time. Of course I see you as a friend. Good luck to you making that name for yourself. I'm sure it will be a success.