Very tired all the time

I don't know if I mentioned this before - maybe not, because I'm still kind of sore about it - but that desk job I had? I got fired for being late. There's a bunch of bullcrap surrounding it - I wasn't given a warning or anything, to start - but honestly I hated that job, and I'm more upset about the stain on my record than anything else. But everybody knows the job market still isn't great, and I'm hesitant to go back to Walmart - I want to keep moving forward, and I'm afraid of getting a step back. If I have to, I will, but I'm going to be looking for something better first.

In the meantime, though, I'm working through a temp agency at a little local farm that's selling pumpkins and stuff. It runs 9 to six and I'm there Monday through Thursday, running the register, bagging and washing fresh carrots - I am 98% carnivore and ohmygod those carrots smell so good you don't even know. It's not challenging work, per se, but it is physically demanding. I'd come home and refuse to move - but of course spending six months sitting down all day will do some work on you.

On that note, though, it is so, so much better than the last job I had because it's actually rewarding. Even in just the small sense of I get to see little kids giggle at the veggies with funny shapes. Sending out emails because someone's contract isn't up to snuff just doesn't feel the same as having a three year old carefully hand you their apple. I'm pretty darn sure I'm an introvert - every test I've taken has said so - but I think I like working with people because I get to go home from it. If it's good, I made some pleasant memories. If not, I get to unload and unwind with my electronics. I don't have the sore computer-eyes that spoil whatever creative juices hadn't been killed by staring at a windows-98 grey screen all day. It's just...nice to have that breathing room, and physical labor lets the mind wander. It's hard to describe, but at the moment I'm satisfied.

Yeah, it's hard work - it's a bloody farm, dude. But I kind of like it, and I think I'll be kind of sad when October ends and I have to find something else (unless it's something awesome). But during this time, I am going to be goddamn tired pretty much all of the week, and using up most of my free time in the evening just keeping up with other things.

BUT I did manage to get a new tablet (old one was having issues and it would have cost a ton just to get a replacement pen), and with the help of a friend Pen Pressure is now recognized in Photoshop - that took up most of my time this weekend - and I'm thinking I'm gonna sketch up the Spirits we've seen so far in the Earth Ponies, and maybe make a new cover. Don't get me wrong, I still like the one I made, but...Well, I think I have a better idea to capture the ideas behind the story. I'll give it a shot when I have the time, and if ya hate it lemme know and I'll tweak it or change it back if it gets enough hate. Still, my story, my cover.

But, yeah. I can't say when I'll actually have time for that, except probably on the weekends? If my butt doesn't hate me this week then maybe I'll be able to type out the musings I work on while washing carrots and shucking corn, but no promises.

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TLDR new job, very hard, much tired. New words and pictures soon-ish maybe though