Big Disappointment

Back in my last blog post (and also my first blog post), I said something about how if I didn't get a lot done on FiP that I'd be hugely disappointed with myself.

Wow was I spot on. I don't think I've felt as generally depressed at right this minute than I have since before I found the pony-dom. It's invaded my life, and even fake life like RPGs. I don't feel like I can do anything, and all motivation is just gone. I probably wouldn't even have gotten my laptop out of if my damned brain would let me go back to sleep. First time in two and a half days I get any sleep, and then four hours in my brain decides NOPE time to wake up.

I know I'm not the only one who wrestles with stuff like this. I personally know for a fact that Somber, author of Project Horizons and one of my favorite authors, deals with personal situations much worse than mine. That's what makes it so baffling. I have no reason to be depressed. I'm at a great college, I have great friends, I spend time in a great fandom. So then why the hell am I depressed? What kind of person do I have to be to look at everything awesome in my life and then turn around and say "nope, not good enough" and throw myself under the depression bus?

How do you guys deal with it? Do you? If you don't, how would you?

Assuming anyone even reads this.