Well i tried but failed. · 1:45am May 21st, 2016
Me Matthew from Devon, tried to jump of a motorway bridge and it end with my leg hitting a side of a fence almost halting my fall and landed on my side on a grass bank and somehow came out ok-ish.
I don't even know what i'm doing anymore, here i am now sitting at home with my right leg and arm in a cast and like a fucking idiot. I betrayed my family and my sisters, i fucked up big time. This is the worst thing i ever done in life.
Please i deserve hate, no sympathy at all i'm an idiot with brain damage, autism, Asperger's, PTSD, depression and fucking bad anxiety.
I don't know how i'm still fucking alive though, i should be dead not sitting here crying and cursing to myself how much a fucking idiot i am. I betrayed you also.
I'm sorry for the scare i caused and the mass panic.
What you deserve is understanding.
Oh, thank god, I was worried.
I'm happy you survived. There is so much more to life than just darkness and despair. Believe me, I was at that point this February. But I chose not to harm myself. I'm happier now.
Believe you me, if I could make it out of depression I was in, anyone can. Especially you. You're strong, man. You can power through it.