Random Ramblings CLXVII · 10:00am Apr 24th, 2017
IN WHICH INSOMNIA BREEDS IDEAS
As I write this, it's around 5:00 in the morning. Not a tremendously huge deal; it's not like I have anywhere to be, although I should enjoy the upcoming day before the rains return. There's a park near my home that is built around a creek. I like going to rivers and creeks when they're at high water level. I'd go to some of the more rugged trails around town, but they're kinda waterlogged at the moment, not fun to walk through. Anyway, if you would be so kind as to follow me past the jump, I'll give you some legit rambling.
I've not made much effort to sleep, so I've been searching music on Youtube. I've lately become semi-addicted to TheFatRat. And of course popular songs that got YTP'd. Yeah, you wouldn't think someone like me who writes bleak stories about mental illness and self-harm would consider Youtube Poop one of the highest forms of modern art, but, sh!t, I wrote a whole story about it. And that's why Spike doesn't want to participate in my latest chapter of Mayor.
I've also been listening to the older oeuvre of YourEnigma (I don't mind his new stuff, but I like the string stuff more), and it made me wonder what it would be like for someone as prissy as Octavia -- f.y.i. one of my Top10 favourite ponies -- to go to Big Beulah's Burrito Barn. So I might do a story about her getting a burrito. It would be called something like Octavia Melody Contemplates A Burrito. I dunno, maybe I should look for a better verb.
While partaking in the musics, I have been slowly writing Spider Queen. I realized the only way to make it work was for Sunset to be as naked as possible while still avoiding an M-rating... so she's in her underwear. Why? Well, that's for you to find out when you read it. And maybe it's because I'm sad and lonely and miss my ex-girlfriend who happens to be very busty (she would prefer not to be), but I've found myself having several female characters compare their own busts to Sunset's -- all except Fluttershy are smaller, and 'Shy wishes she was. Since Sunset is tripping balls in this story, I think she's going to get philosophical about her tits. And also her issues.
This just occurred to me -- in my headcanon, the primary EQG cast are all seniors (it's the only thing that makes sense), so why don't they talk more about college, especially since it's Spring? I guess that's just shit they do offscreen. Or maybe CHS has something like the British Sixth Form, that's pretty much optional and functions as college prep for those who want to go. I may have to do some headcanoning of this shit to make it make any damn sense.
In the penultimate Recovery story, Rarity and Flash Sentry briefly discuss Sunset's breasts, because Flash is a man and Rarity asks him a question that allows him to talk about it. But the bulk of it is those two patching up their differences. Rarity won't end up with Flash because I'm swiping CoffeeMinion's canon of him dating Limestone Pie, because it's awesome. Once Recovery is over, everything will revolve around and depend on Sunset Shimmer and Apple Bloom. But who on earth will have read this paragraph besides me anyway?
Well, that's all for now. Peace out!
EDIT!: (4/24: 11pm) I was sitting on my bed, trying to figure out what to not write, and I realized that Sonata should probably get a job a Beulah's. And she needs to say "Welcome to Beulah's Burritos, home of Beulah's Burritos. Can I take your order?" And then upon getting the order, reply "That'll be eight bucks." (which actually is close to the real price with tax added). Yes I am willing to debase the Burritoverse with a Goodburger reference. Hey, I've already used it to reference Star Trek and Earthworm Jim, to say nothing of the many music shoutouts, and I killed off Donald Trump (in-universe only, I'm sorry to say). Nothing's really sacred in that world.
Loss and remembrance are difficult things.
While pony is generally a useful way to help me process things, I know the pendulum can swing too far toward trying to process things and ending up getting stuck instead... because it's been doing that for me lately and I need to swing it back a bit. Probably step 1 is gonna be to sign back up for a yoga class and do it in a pretty damn-the-torpedoes way (ironically for yoga) with regards to scheduling, because I don't really have time for it, but I'm going crazy without some kind of regular physical activity. In a similar vein, I need to put some more mental effort into figuring out how to get us back to church regularly, because I swear it's like every #$%@ Sunday morning some random thing pops up at the absolute last minute. 
Oh and please don't let my silly story hold things up if your Rarity and Flash would otherwise have a chance together. Heck, it would in some ways be fitting (and would potentially be a strong way to tie up Rarity's part of the arc) for the two souls who Sunset's had the biggest effect on to find common ground on that basis. And for what it's worth, my original plan was for Flash and Limestone not to get together in the end; their time together would have helped them learn some things they needed to do to get themselves out of the ruts they were stuck in, but I saw them going in very different directions in life, and I figured they'd part amicably once they helped each other realize that.
Of course then I wimped out and got hooked on the ship and things ended up differently.
But we've already established that my story doesn't quite fit either Burritoverse or Recovery-verse canon, so there's nothing wrong with having there be elements of both similarity and difference.
4509151 - I understand the need to get out and do things sometimes. I meant to get out today, but passed out before I could (my pills do that). Also, the hiking trails around here are still waterlogged from all the rain we had this weekend.
You'll have to pardon me that I do not church. I used to church, but my church has changed for (in my opinion) the worse and I have no desire to try again. My grandma's funeral two weeks ago is likely to be the last time I set foot in there. It was wonderful and I want to leave it with that feeling. I know church is very important to you, and that's great, but it simply isn't for me, and I'm okay with that. (also note I live in the Ozarks, so church in general carries a lot of baggage)
I was with the same girl for eight years. We talked multiple times about marriage (no fancy ceremony), kids (none), and other future stuff, but circumstances in my own life last year caused my mental issues to get far worse, and she just could not deal, especially because I had no idea how to ask for professional help. That plus a feeling of being in a rut caused her to leave very abruptly, leaving behind most of her stuff… including her cat (though I asked to keep him so I could have something to snark at). She's moved on, which leaves me feeling worse.
It was my intention to ask your permission to have Flash set up with Limestone in my stories, since the ship was your idea. If not, that's cool and I'll just let him be forever alone pining for horse girls. I can't say I'm shocked by your original plan, and they probably will break up after awhile, but that's not now. I personally don't see Flash and Rarity being a thing (even if they did attempt to hook up freshman year before Sunset stopped it). They'll certainly find common ground, but just as better friends. That's meant to be the point of that story, and to shine some light on his & Sunset's relationship.
As far as continuities not jiving, I've got two long stories planned for my "Twilight of the Humanoids" continuity, which will begin with the Anon-A-Miss story I'm currently working on, and it's going to borrow several thematic elements from Recovery yet is not a direct sequel to it.
4509174 By all means, run with Flash and Limestone if you like. I can hardly say no to more FlashLime out there in the world. It is truly the most refined (or at least the most obscure) of ships.
Though now that I'm good and hooked on them, I have half a mind to write some kind of 10-to-20-years-later fic exploring all the wonderfully painful ways that relationships between good-natured people who love each other can hit the rocks. But that would be getting to the point where the MLP connection is razor-thin, and I'm pretty confident the audience for it would be zero anyway.
As for the rest, I know things haven't been great and I don't mean to poke at nerves. I do mention church because it is important to me. Though yeah, it sounds different there. It's supposed to be "a hospital not a museum" (to steal a metaphor from... someone I forgot); it sucks when churches take that museum-first-and-only approach.