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i don't want to preface this with saying "it's been a while," but it's only felt that way since rejoining
from that spike way back when to the long gap of presence to now
it's no real use to bring any of this up but it sort of amazed me how hard restarting is
i've gotten too used to moving around to other things
too used to where i was, so much so that it's hard to come back, no matter how much i love this site and want to jump back in
i toyed around with the idea of rejoining for a while but it's clear to me that i'm beyond it

it's for the best i stay away
this sort of just is in the past forever, i guess

lowkey i'm dramatic as fuck ugh i hate myself xd