Random Ramblings CCCLXII · 10:09pm Apr 23rd, 2019
IN WHICH I APOLOGIZE…AGAIN
I wonder if I should start putting the music video below the page break too. Maybe, but not today…
Now that I've hopefully blown your mind, on with the show. And the apology
Up to now, I've been releasing Annie at a steady clip with two chapters a week, skipping one day because I was driving cross-region and was dead tired upon getting home. Unfortunately, that went out the window as of yesterday. I skipped my scheduled update where I should have posted the final chapter.
I have no excuses, only explanations.
Truth be told, I haven't made any of the rewrites of the last chapter that I need to to rectify some of the redundancies earlier edits created. Why not? I've simply had no desire to do it. The only thing I've done writing-wise in the last week is finish the internal monologue for Octavia's Burritoverse story, but I haven't even started on the rest, partly because I'm not 100% sure how to make the standoff work.
There's so much I want to do, so many stories I want to tell, but I don't have the willpower to put in the effort right now.
And at this moment, two of my stories are sitting incomplete. I STILL haven't started on the final chapter of my latest Mayor Mare story, and it's been three months.
Maybe it's because I've been awake since 10:30 last night (and it's about 5pm now), but I'm just really feeling down.
Today, tickets to Babymetal's arena show in Los Angeles went on sale. I had to skip out on the expensive VIP tickets because of other financial commitments (with airfare and hotel, $200 to $300 [plus fees] for a ticket is a bit much. I want to go because all my online friends well be there, so I'm hoping decent seats will open up in the next round. I don't really have any IRL friends anymore, at least none who live within 30 miles of me.
So I just sit here in my house growing ever more depressed. I do actually get out -- during the middle of the night to go to the gym.
Sometimes I just want to let the darkness consume me.
But to do that without finishing what I promised you is a dick move.
I'm so tired. No ETA on the final chapter of Annie, I'm afraid. Or Octavia's burrito story. Would anyone even want to read a burrito story about Octavia. That dude who told me I shouldn't have written more than one entry really got to me. I'm a fucking hack and I know it. Can't even write a piece of proper fiction.
Anywho, I'ma nap now. Stuff will come out… whenever
Peace out.
Np, take your time. Trying to force yourself to do it will just make you less likely to do it, more often than not.
Aw, that sucks man. Those down days are really rough, especially when you don't have a strong social circle irl. Don't worry about keeping up, with all the stories you have, only having two incomplete is pretty amazing. I've canceled several I lost passion in, have at least two that are on hiatus, and have killed so many in the hanger... so don't feel about that! Your numbers are great! We're just happy to see your stuff whenever its ready.
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Keep in mind the majority of my stories are one-shots, so it's not too fair a comparison. The unfinished stories all have literally one chapter to go. I've never been good at finishing things -- I was as surprised as anyone that I managed to finish Sunset's Recovery Arc and the optional-canon Shipping Epilogue.
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Still, not a bad ratio! Its something worth being proud of.