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Venting and “Teammates” third chapter update · 9:12am Dec 9th, 2020

I didn’t think I’d bother making use of this blogging feature anytime soon, but I think I’m in need of some channel to vent and write all my thoughts down, and this came to mind first for some reason.

I really haven’t been feeling good these past few months and the last couple days have been especially awful. Long story short, I’m in deep crap at my university to the point that I’ll likely have to completely change majors if not transfer to a new university in order to continue studying what I’ve been studying for the past two and a half so years. That, or do something else entirely. Basically my whole damn course of action in life is being flipped and tossed around at the moment and I have no clue yet what I should do and can do. I feel sick, it hurts to breathe or eat, I can’t focus on studying for the two finals I have left because my mind continues to race.

So that’s where my head is at this moment, very fun. That brings me to the part that’s actually relevant to anyone reading this, I suppose.

[THE ACTUAL IMPORTANT PART] So far, as much as it pains me to say it, I’m maybe only a little under a quarter of the way through writing the next chapter of “Teammates”. Suffice to say, I’m disappointed to be at such a point when the last chapter was released during the late summer and we’re coming up on Christmas now. I do have a solid outline of the chapter, I know where it’s going, what it’s going to touch on and the events, etc. I simply haven’t gotten to actually writing the large majority of it thanks to time and me being in the right state to write it, and I believe it’s going to shape up to be a good bit longer than the previous chapters. Nonetheless, I hate that I’ve left both those of you following it and myself hanging for all this time on it continuing due to school and other life crap interfering. I barely have time to write or draw, and both are probably the only sources of genuine invigoration I have without any crushing pressure to go along with them. They’ve turned into proper outlets for me in this past year, and I want to take advantage of them, but there always seems to be some excuse for why I can’t draw and write as much as I wish I could.

I know my “fan base” — if you can consider it such — isn’t especially large, but the few of you who read this little project I started one crappy night I was ill and in bad mental sorts, or have even viewed some of my art and enjoy the admittedly weird stuff I decide to create means a lot to me. I remember when I was 12, first getting into MLP and coming across all these really cool artists and writers and this strange but oddly welcoming community surrounding it, I liked to daydream that I’d someday get involved somehow, yet never seriously expected a single person to find any significance in anything I could make. I don’t know what took me so long to decide to properly become a part of the community, but I’m glad I did around this time nearly a year ago. Now, I’ve discovered that something I make can resonate with someone (several someones, haha) to the point that they will even leave moderately to extensively detailed explanations of what stuck with them. It sounds obvious to point out, but it’s in such contrast to that self-defeating mindset I used to have. Hell, I’ve even had the privilege of getting to meet and gain a fan of my art in one of the very members of this community I have looked up to for years, something I certainly never expected in the slightest.

I may never be a “known” and respected writer or artist like those I happen to admire, but I feel like I’ve accomplished a lot personally through what I’ve done in this past year. I really value those of you keeping up with me based on only the relatively small amount of content I’ve produced and hope you stick around. As trivial as it may seem, having this to put care and life into has helped me keep it together in some rough times. Gives me another thing to look forward to when I wake up in the morning.

Sorry this blog is just me rambling a bunch when no one asked, no one cares, I get it. I just felt the urge to get some of my thoughts out thanks to everything going on right now, and more importantly, it gave me an excuse to say some things I’ve kinda been wanting to express but hadn’t found a reason to ‘till now. In summary, I appreciate all your guys’ support and understanding, and I am very eager to properly get to writing more for you all. The experiences I’ve had and this story itself hold a special place in my thoughts, and it’ll be a joy when I can focus more on it after school finishes up in the next week or so. Maybe I can get the next chapter out by Christmas (or whatever holiday you celebrate at this time of year) and you can consider it a gift from me to you guys as a thank you for all the support.