The real reason; after the fact · 5:18am Feb 3rd, 2021
I finally came to understand what Cozy Glow really means to me in the last few minutes... Originally portrayed as a "mystery villain" in the series, we never really learned who she was or why she did what she did in the series. That said, I took that opportunity to give her a heavy dose of my own fear and pain. That is, the fear of the world not accepting me and the pain of losing my parents. I'll admit that I legitimately felt sorry for her as I typed those words of her breaking down in Trixie's office. She kept asking herself, "Why does it bother me now? Why am I not strong anymore?" I felt sorry for her because I know those are my own words...
After I stopped drinking, I slowly began to reflect on my life and what had brought me to that point. I began to understand that the while my reactions could've been better sometimes, the vast majority of what happened to me was not my fault. It wasn't my fault that my own mother died a horrible death right in front of my own eyes. It wasn't my fault that I'm not the man I was supposed to be. It's not my fault that my marriage failed because of who I was. It wasn't my fault that my father betrayed and used me. None of these things were my fault and as I really began to examine Cozy in my mind, I came to realize that that's precisely the version of me that she is! "Shit happens!" is the ultimate lesson here! Or in her own words in the epilogue, "Why do bad things happen to good ponies? There's just no real answer huh?"
