well crap · 8:28pm Mar 12th, 2021
feeling like crap again. never felt worse. i know how you feel devonus, i really do. and it's not pretty. i'm sorry you had to go through it, and now here i am going through it. nothing worse than being anti-suicidal however, i couldn't kill myself even if i wanted to. i can't even kill an animal for gosh sakes. i can't kill anything. i want to end it, but i can't, i won't, there's too much weighing on me for me to just go. i have to stay here, i have to push through it, i have to be the better