My original plan was to go to a dental office nearby that my local dental office referred me too for a root canal that would be covered by my Medi-Cal by some miracle. However, at the time I made it there the disorienting and painful effects of the cavity that I theorize was causing the entire issue were at the highest and I absolutely could not bring myself to wait the two extra weeks to get for the insurance to kick in after the inspection, so I paid 400 bucks for them to do most of the

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I MIGHT have had a little bitty PANIC ATTACK necessitating my mom to call the EMTs last night! It turns out that after watching your family die bit by bit over 5 years and then start having progressively worse and worse symptoms over a couple weeks you kinda LOSE YOUR SHIT. My now DAILY multi-hour vision/speech/reading destructing migraines are now making me pretty useless for most of the day, and last night it got to the point where I genuinely thought that if I didn't actively and consciously

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Okay update since last blog:

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So... 'bout two weeks back or so, I think, I started getting anywhere from all of 2 to 3 hours of sleep a night, and whenever I would wake up it would feel like my head had just gotten run over by twelve angry busses filled with bricks that hate me.

To clarify, the bus and bricks BOTH hate me.

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Today is Dad's birthday. Every Friday after I got off work, since my job used to get off at noon on Fridays, me and Dad would meet up at a local pizza place to have lunch together and catch up. So because it's his birthday today, me and Mom are going to the same place and having some pizza there just like the two of us used to.
Happy Birthday, Dad. Love you and miss you.

Pretty much all of the previous week I had those weird migraines every other day or so where I had either the ones where I can't see straight, the ones where I can't read or speak clearly, or both of them one after the other. Most of this week I've been okay with only minor headaches, but today I woke up with a good deal of pain, vision problems, and now reading and writing was difficult most of the day. I'm starting to become alarmed how frequently this is happening but all I can do is put up

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You never appreciate a can of Off spray so much as when you have to water plants and weed eat after the sun is mostly down and mosquitos just freakin' SWARM at that hour around here. I've spent the last couple weeks just swatting them constantly and going back inside with ten new bites per night. My world that was once pure distilled ITCH has been saved by wonderful, wonderful chemicals. I mean they'll PROBABLY give me cancer later but RIGHT NOW I'm fine and isn't that what really matters?

When you already didn't have to write anything, but you're still too lazy to read through any of it even once lol
Anyway IRL morale continues to be low, funds are getting worryingly depleted, and the combination of my mental health issues and current circumstances leave me perpetually unable to think of anything to do about it except continue to lay low.

This year, I accomplished very little, but I suppose it's more than the nothing I accomplished of years prior. I also lost more, and this time it's felt like what was lost was the last load bearing pillar of the structure I've known since birth and now the entire thing is crumbling around me, which is normal for someone my age because that's just how TIME functions, but in my case I've been unable to build even a single thing to replace what has fallen into ruin. My lot in life feels

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I'm not going to bother to make this into a new story like I did with Dog Days (that one's going to need severe retooling before it ever sees the light of day) but I did write a short little five and a quarter page thingy that is a kind of vertical slice "trailer fic" just like Dog Days was. Though I don't exactly intend it as a full crossover exactly, the inspiration for it is going to be so painfully obvious it might as well be, although I'm already writing fanfic in the first place so it

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