have you ever had that moment where you got something you always wanted and your response was nothing more than “cool, i guess”.

see, that’s me right now. i suppose it’s the most humane response after learning about the suffering of the people who made you want that thing to begin with.

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ok i don't typically ask for fic recommendations because i thoroughly enjoy a good rabbit hole, but this rabbit hole is not taking me to my wonderland. so does anyone know any good sci-twi angst fics? no further criteria needed.

yooo I just got a laptop. And it's mine this time so I don't have to submit to the authority of go guardian.

technically I have two, one from 2010 and one from 2016. I'm supposed to surrender one of them to be used as the 'family computer'.

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Truly, I am looking forward to having 2 weeks to convince a substitute teacher to like me or else I’m not going to college 🙃

So apparently the theatrical program at my school is being put on indefinite hold because the district is reviewing whether or not to fire my director. And in the meantime, the program and all of the classes are being left in the hands of 9 teenagers.

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Based on a true story. Read as dialogue.

“When you offer help without me asking for it, that makes me feel infantilized.”

“Well, I didn’t mean it like that.”

“Okay, it’s still how I feel when you do that.”

“I just want to help you.”

“Offering unsolicited help does not benefit me and actively makes the situation worse.”

“So what would you like me to do?”

“I would like you to only offer help when I ask for it.”

“Okay.”

48 hours later with a different person

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I’ve been prepping to move out these past few weeks. But in a productive kind of way, not in an emotionally driven kind of way. It’s mostly just me trying to stop being a hoarder before I have to haul everything in some sort of moving van. I hate throwing out things that still work, especially since most things I own are fairly high quality.

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Maybe don’t read this if you have a fear of bugs.

So I was having a rough time not so long ago. About three weeks at this point. And now I’m wishing that’s all there was to worry about.

Around three days ago I heard a squeaky sound near my vent. This was hours after encountering a rather large bug in my kitchen, one that mysteriously disappeared not long after the sighting. I thought it was some sort of animal so I slept on the couch that night.

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i need
my trauma therapy
‘cuz i’m just trying to forget
all those things you said

Tw: secondhand discussions of SA

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Y’know I’m starting to see a trend between when I choose to take my meds and when I decide to actually sit down and write a blog.

Ah, I need to start my year prep soon. Get back in shape and update my theatrical superiors on everything I couldn’t be bothered to summarize in May.

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