This year sucked.

I've just been trying to cope. I'm in and out of various kinds of episodes. Quarantine has me fucked up. The last week has me in some fucked up relapse and I've been forgetting the days. I keep have fits of rage because I can't remember what year it is. I hate this.

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My birthday is in a few weeks, and it's surreal. I'm going to be 20, but I still feel like a child. I guess that comes with the territory of lost time

I've been recollecting the Build-a-Bear ponies recently. They made me really happy when I was an actual teenager, so I'm happy to be able to reclaim things I lost when I was gone for those four years (my BAB collection was sold, or given away, or something...)

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I've been in and out of consciousness the past week. Everything's been rather hard, my schizophrenia has had a flareup and it's hard to get out of bed when I'm having delusions and hallucinations again. I haven't been in control very often the past few days, it's mostly been the adults in control, I guess

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It's 30 minutes to midnight.

Our fiance fell asleep, so I'm totally alone.

I've been crying nonstop, and having urges to self-harm again honestly

This is horrible. I feel horrible

I just want to fall asleep for a few days until I feel better...

I was really excited for the new year. Especially for the new decade, and I didn't think I would be

....then everyone I know had a bad new year. And people started telling me they felt awful that it was a new decade, and they missed the past, etc

I'm already struggling really badly with coping with the missed years, and the one day I finally thought maybe I could get over it, people started telling me they feel like they wasted the decade .-.

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Sort of looking for some writing advice. I want to have scenes in a fic that involve being ambiguous if they are happening entirely in the main character's head, or if they are real. I'm not quite sure I can pull them off, so does anyone have any advice on how to effectively write these kinds of scenes so they aren't unnecessarily just straight up confusing and awkwardly done?

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My fukkin job involves a lot of writing so I am really slow on the next chapter of MNiNM, I'm at 589 words so far One of my alters who goes by Purple Star has been helping me with editing my writing since she's a little better at it than me, both shiz I have to turn in for my job and fanfics

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SO I REALLY NEED TO CATCH UP OON FIM ASDSFDGXSDAVDB I NEED TO KNOW WHAT FANFIC BAIT WE GOT WHILE I WAS GONE

I really want to finish teh MNiNM rewrite before I do anything else. I don't plan on it being too lengthy tbh but who knows

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Hhhhholy shit does anyone I know still use this site? Maybe?

Hi! The past four years have been really fucking weird! I told myself on 12/21 I'd come back because that date is really really important to me. So uh, I did. And I've been gone for a really long time in more ways than one! I rewrote My Name is Nightmare Moon, so if you liked that way back in ye olde 2013 you should go sneak a peek

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Yea so I had that realization.

Was weird.

But it also means only a year til I can bang him.

Yes, I actually AM writing a fic, even if the going is slow.