A state of Hamartia

Hi there! I've decided to write a little post to introduce myself.

For most of my time in the fandom, I've been a lurker, devouring horse words with my morning coffee and waiting eagerly for updates on lenghtier stories. Reading all these fanfics has helped me in a silent way, some as marvels of prose and poetry, others fueling my desire for escapism and countless more speaking to the heart with technicolour animals as the means. It's a bit difficult to really write a nice entry, as I am criticizing myself with every word here.

Literature is my passion, but I've not penned a single piece in years now, partly because I'm very anxious as a person and writing is such a raw medium, partly because all the nice places I want to express my creativity in are anglophone. English is not my mother tongue, so I don't share the same intuitiveness as my native language... Yet, I still want to try and take the leap, especially since I've seen so much nice work on here and since I would love to get out of my shell, to tell all the authors how much their stories meant to me.

It is a double-edged sword, as I don't want to come off as too reverent nor do I wish to idealise the artistic scene. Been there already, seen how messy we humans are and how scary things can arise from communities — my hope is that I cause less of it and have the fortitude to go forward. I do feel like I am a little too flowery, since I'm not really sure about how English prosody may sound, but I'd love to understand it better.

In any case, that was a sandwich of nothing. The gist of it is that I'm a super anxious ESL lad who loves to read and wants to improve. Hope I'll succeed in this endeavour!