"State of the Author" · 11:31pm Apr 29th, 2019
You're a world away
Somewhere in the crowd
In a foreign place
Are you happy now?
TL;DR: I am not dead, but I'm not active right now, either.
I don't like to publicly discuss negative going-ons of my life, because I'm not seeking pity or even support. However, I feel I owe some amount of explanation for where I've been lately--because some folks may notice it hasn't been here.
The holidays of 2018 were, for lack of a better word, traumatizing. What happened left me broken; I went to work and did little else for weeks until I came to the realization that I needed to see a therapist.
Therapy has helped me get out of the dark hole I'd fallen into, but it's also dredged up things from my childhood that I'd buried and ignored. I'm confronting a lot of things each session, which saps a lot of energy and strength. Writing is something I want to do, but both of my incomplete stories--Hopes and Veil--require things from me that I haven't been able to afford.
They will be continued and finished, but I can't commit to 'when'; I just felt that those who'd invested time in my writing deserved at least some word from me.
Sorry to hear that you're having a rough time right now. By all means, focus on feeling better. Best Wishes!
Hey, you need to concentrate on you. Everyone here will understand. All the best.
You’re a brave hero for being you. Never forget that.
Crystal, we all understand. Many of us, myself included, have had to walk that road. It isn't easy; it's hard and and likely one of the most hurtful times you'll ever endure, I hope it is not and I hope you have the love and support of those you can count on to see you through. Be strong, be safe and know we are all here for you. You take all the time you need to heal. You're going to be okay. Just take your time. *hugs*
Take the time to take care of yourself; believe me, I know a thing or two about how neglecting yourself can affect you.
We're all here if you need us.
I can’t say I am going through similar trauma, nor am I saying I am. I just know what it’s like to lose that spark, yet crave it back.
On my end, work is giving me what I want. At the same time, it’s draining because of my six week days. I fight over my free time, wanting finish everything I’m setting out for. But my mind and body wants to rest first.
I spend hours thinking about my stories as I stack boxes at my job. But time for simple relaxation and leisure also has its siren call. That Sunny Day story I mentioned over a year ago is near completion after crawling along because of last year’s and the current struggles.
I cannot say when anything will be published next when it comes to any of my current projects. You’re not alone, Crystal. I hope that relieves anything of you somewhat.
Take care of yourself, Crystal.
Everyone else has already said it, so you know what I'm going to say.
We love you Crystal, and be it a day, a month, a year or however long, we'll continue to love you when you're ready to come back fully.
Just take the time you need to focus on you, Crystal. The rest can wait.
Best wishes to you, and hope things turn for the better soon.
Know that you are loved.
You will feel better.
You will emerge stronger.
We'll see you, any time you wish us to. You're a friend first and a writer... I dunno fourth or fifth after friend a few more times for emphasis. Everything else you are in between and beyond is for you to decide.
Don't fret, Rose Princess therapy will help you recover from the ordeal and return stronger than ever, just focusing on getting better, we khaaan wait
Return when you can, Crystal, but take care of yourself above all things ;3
The writing can wait, as can we. Just get better, that's all that matters.
I'm so sorry Crystal. Take care of yourself and get better. We're all behind you and just want you to be well.
No need to commit to a 'when'. Everything has its proper time, and it's super okay if the time for more writing is a long ways down the road. Please take all the time to focus on your own well being, and don't stress yourself out for our sake.
Take care!
Take all the time you need for yourself, we'll wait.
It's great to hear that you decided to go to therapy. A lot of people that need help don't get it so it's always great to hear when someone courageous like you takes that step to work through issues.
Hey Crystal, definitely noticed your absence and totally understand the need to occasionally stop and just try to stabilize yourself. I hope this is not a horrible time you have to look back on and rather a time you look back to because it was a start on the path for a happier, healthier you.
"I don't like to publicly discuss negative going-ons of my life, because I'm not seeking pity or even support."
No pity....but you will have lots of support! Take your time, get yourself squared away, and come back to us with your lovely stories. Support and our love by the truck load!
Can't say anything that hasn't already been said, but just adding my voice anyway. Hope you find what you need and come out the other side stronger for it. If there's anything I can do, don't hesitate to ask.
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through a lot, but happy you're working through it.
Hope to see you around more! I've missed you!
I can't properly hug emote you on a blog post! Gonna have to do that on Discord, I guess.
You do as you feel to do. I can only give you my best wishes for a rapid recovery and hopes you will be better soon.
All the rest is secondary.
We've chatted, but I felt a note was deserved. And to say you aren't alone. Roads are different, but the terrain is often similar.
Thank you for being you. For what you do, what you write and everything else that words don't work to say.
And thank you for reminding me of this song. It's rather perfect right now at the moment. ^^
I've lurked around the site for a while, but never really said anything. I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone. I've been going to therapy for more than a year now, and I can well understand how tough it is to deal with all shit you've buried. But it is much better for you to confront it. Stay strong and have hope. Maybe you can't see it now, but there is an end to the pain.
I'm sorry to hear that things have been on the rougher end for you lately, belated as this is. I hope you're faring well and that you can work things out with the least possible amount of emotional turmoil; please don't feel like you owe us any explanation for anything, though. Your writing has been a pleasant experience for all of us to enjoy, and is always something to look forward to, but it's still something you do to enjoy yourself at the end of the day, and that's how it should stay.
I'm sure we'd all be just as understanding if you needed to disappear without a word for as long as you needed to so you could get everything back in order on your end.
Don't rush yourself into writing for our sake; take your time, get better, confront and conquer your issues. You can do it, we've all got faith in your - it's never easy, but it's always worth it. I wish you the best and a swift return to normalcy and happiness.
I wish you nothing but the best. My own life has been a bit of a rollercoaster of suck for the past... well honestly since holiday 2018. You're not alone.
Hope you feel better soon.
... Re-reading Crystal's Wishes, and it occurred to me I was more invested in Crystal's relationship with Velvet (and the possibility it may very well shatter) than I was with far larger-scope things.
I first came into Q&B on the Quill side. I knew factually that you could tell any kind of story so long as the characters were fun and interesting; hell, it's part of what got me into MLP in the first place. But I think Wishes is what really hit it home for me, especially when taken into context with the blade half of the universe (which I didn't actually discover was a thing for a long time). This world has high adventure, fantasy, true love, ancient powers and all of that, but the first hook in me was a little filly with a secret passion for romance, worried she'd lost her first and only friend.
Crystal's Wishes and the universe it takes place in are one of the main reasons why I'm still invested in MLP and the brony community, even though I stopped watching the show long ago. I just wanted to say that I appreciate these stories and you as a writer. The last comment I remember leaving was... harsh and entitled. And I'm sorry.
You do good work and don't let anyone tell ye different. Get well soon. Your readers will understand.
All the best to you and well Crystal Wishes
I am sorry to hear that your going through a rough time, and i hope that you pull through.
Hey take all the time you need. Your a excellent writer. And I hope you get better sorry for not seeing this sooner.