Ponyville’s favorite mail mare takes a trip down memory lane and ends up giving some very helpful advice to somepony she only just met that day.
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Element of Malice
One day my heart felt heavy so I set it down. Then I lost it, someone stole it because it was made of gold. Yours looks heavy, can I borrow a piece? I'll return it when I find mine.
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I don't know who you are but I love you, thanks for writing this
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I get the feeling that it was something you needed to hear. I could be wrong though.
Thank you for commenting on this fossil of a story, very glad you liked it.
Not long ago, I wrote a similar story with a slightly different tune about the same topic. If that interests you, perhaps I could self-promote it?
admittedly, it is a little darker than this one.
On a side note, how did you come across this if you don’t mind my asking?
Your right, this was something I needed to hear, for as long as I can remember I've struggled with depression and there's been a few times I was in the same horseshoes as that mare, but I never had anyone to be my derpy, I'm actually surprised I'm still here, one of the reasons pinkie is my favorite pony, even after everything I've been through she can still make me smile
As for how I found this story, I read one of your other stories(if words left scars) and was just absolutely blown away, I watched the videos that you tagged that inspired that story for you and I probably cried for an hour. When I find stories that are so well written and so good, the author that wrote them usually has a few more up there sleeve, so I scrolled through your stories in the author section
P.s. I know from experience that the only people that can come up with stories like these, that actually understand these situations and what people feel are the people who went through them themselves, I can't say I know 100% how you feel because we ARE different, but I CAN SAY THAT YOU ARE LOVED and even if I can't be there with you and can't be there for you I love you, I'm telling you this because for all my life I've lived these moments, and for all my life these are the words I've wanted to hear, and I'm still waiting, but I can say them to you because my feelings are real, and no matter what youve done in your life I LOVE YOU
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Personally, I’ve never gotten as bad as what happens in These stories. But for almost a decade now, I’ve perpetually been between feeling like a much milder version of Scootaloo and Rainbow Dash. When I’m not feeling like Rainbow Dash, fretting about the consequences of my every action, I’m wishing it was that bad while feeling like Scootaloo only for a few days at most, though. With this story, I wanted to lean away from the traditional “just chose happiness!” message. As I’m sure you know, it isn’t that easy.
One of the most challenging parts of these stories is knowing what to say in comforting the one who needs it most because it’s an answer I don’t have.
I've seen both sides of this spectrum, I've saved someone from suicide and almost committed suicide multiple times myself, and nobody saved me, I had to save myself, and like you said you can't just choose happiness, I guess you just have to make it on your own and I know what you mean about worrying about all the consequences for every action, all I can say is don't focus too much on the who, or why, or what can or will happen, just find what makes you happy and don't ever let anyone take it from you,
And nobody has the right words, and anyone who says theydo is a liar, when people are hurting, most of the time they just want someone to tell the truth, to know that what they do matters, that they mean something, that they can do more than just hurt and be hurt, and I learned from experience that the only thing we can do is just be a REAL friend, I think the words you write are just fine, because the only right words are the ones you mean with all your heart
You'd be surprised how just the smallest barest words can have such a powerful meaning and impact on someone, I fully believe there are trigger words, I have a few of my own, and the easiest way to find them is in truth
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This conversation is making me think of a song I like listening to often.
I also feel like I should mention that this was a source of inspiration, as well as an easter egg. If only more people used their words to heal instead of hurt. I say that, but it's mostly wishful thinking because we all have our own ideas of what we want others to say.
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Now that I’m thinking about it, it’s a bit scary how many sad related sources I know about and look for as a form of comfort and didn’t even realize it. Two more I want to share are a movie called ‘A Silent Voice’ that you can find on Netflix, and another is this music video. When I first wrote this story I didn’t expected to hear back from anyone that it uplifted them as much as it did you. You’re more than welcome to share this with whoever you think might need it. May your coming days be filled with appreciation... and muffins.
i.chzbgr.com/full/9106929664/h2569EC3F/derpy-and-muffins
It's a nice ending. I didn't see it coming. Most of the body of this story is kind of bland and I was expecting a similar ending. First stories by an author are rarely very deep or meaningful, and this presented itself as a "nothing really happens" slice of slice story with a predictably trite ending.
Instead, in the final paragraph we're given this, single, important word:
She was going to kill heself, Derpy interrupted. Ok. Some random stranger asking if you're ok doesn't erase a lifetime of experience. So she was still going to kill herself and Derpy's instinct said "no, you have to go back." And especially interesting is that Derpy had to overcome her own fear to do it:
She had a personal stake in this. She had something to lose. The mare was obviously angry at the interruption. The first third of the story establishes that Derpy has a hard time keeping jobs, she's moved around, she hadn't had a whole lot of stability in her life growing up, but now she's had this job for a while. And she's willing to risk it. It gives weight to her decision. It means more that Derpy is the one doing this, rather than Pinkie or Twilight barging in to help somebody with no fear and nothing to lose. Pinkie would genuinely want to help, but it wouldn't mean as much coming from her, because she'd simply see an unhappy pony in need of 'fixing' without really understanding or caring very much what the thing being 'fixed' was or why.
Derpy knew what she was looking at. She understood, from experience.
I think that's exactly what this mare needed. Connection. Being known. Being understood. Pinkie or 'princess of friendship' Sparkle asking if she's alright or offering to listen wouldn't mean as much, regardless if it was once or twice or a dozen times that they asked. With them it would be impersonal. "I'm offering because this is what I do," rather than rapport born of personal experience and understanding. On some level, we all want to be loved. It's nice for somebody to desire that we be happy and be willing to take action to make it happen. But that's not what love is. Love requires knowing. It requires accepting what is. Pinkie doesn't love an unhappy pony. She wants that unhappy pony to be a happy pony instead, and in a way that means changing them. Wanting to change somebody isn't loving them.
Pinkie barging in to say 'be happy' or 'turn that frown upside down' would be like saying "Reject who you are and become something different. Kill the unhappy mare and become happy like we are. Only then will we accept you."
Being an unhappy pony, and being loved even as an unhappy pony...that's very different.
Derpy had been there. Derpy knew. And I think that's what this mare really wanted.
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Muffins the Musical
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Once again, you exceeded my expectations. Keep this up and I might brake out of this monotonous point of view of simply existing my life away in autopilot.
That’s not too different from what I see daily life being. Tomorrow has the same goals as what I did yesterday, or last week. To me it’s all the same. It only gets interesting or exciting when something different happens. I like things that are different in a good way. And I’ll say this you are different.
I’ll admit that the credit for the way it is currently set up belongs to one of the editors, I originally had it as:
Just a heads up. Depending on which stories you’re planning to read, if you do read “The price you pay” (I may be inaccurate and I dislike inaccuracies, so apologies if I am) there’s a part with a therapist and I’ll just tell you now that what I had them say is probably not as accurate as what a real one would say but I made the most out of the inexperience I have in that field.
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This was a great and wholesome fic, it addresses both bullying and suicidal thoughts and how to overcome them, what also made this great is the feeling of it being in the show! Kudos!
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I’m glad you liked this story. Assuming that it lies within your interests, my other story ‘if words left scars’ follows a similar approach albeit with a different set of circumstances. That’s only if it lies in your interests.
I’m curious to know what you mean by that. To my knowledge the closest thing the cannon shows came to on this topic was when Pinkie was asked to stop playing her favorite instrument by her friends as politely as they could manage. That really did a number on her, as depicted later in the same episode.
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What I meant was, it felt like something that should’ve been in the show, yes true that pinkie episode (forgot the name) did tackle a serious issue, but not one when it comes to either tragedy. Like AJ’S parents, I know self harm is a big stink eye towards the public sensors when it comes to kids shows, but it does need to be addressed, cause kids too end up with these dark thoughts. Also I’ll check out your other fics too!