That seems to be the weirdest thing of all, but not the most. And maybe I'm thinking too much, but could it be that this episode is a reference to the fandom, specifically the whole Silent Ponyville part? Since while not totally familiar with that, know it sort of has a creepypasta/horror vibe,The topic of death (Rant journal) · 3:01am Mar 2nd, 2013
(Mostly reposted from FA site)
Hello to all my watchers and some friends. However, this is a rather dark/sad topic, so if you don't like that, back out now. Otherwise, PLEASE don't bitch, as I'm really not in a good place and may even delete this later, if I feel like doing so.
Anyone ever feel like when the life repeatedly kicks you down, that it's the universe's way of telling you... you don't DESERVE to live any longer? 
I apologize for this, but again, not really in a good place as I'm typing this. Let me backtrack a little bit.
So, for anyone who doesn't know from a previous blog or me personally telling them, I'm a Type-1 diabetic and have been ever since I was 9 months of age. I've always done my best to have it taken care of, with help from family; though in recent months since mom got a new dog, I've taken care of it myself cause she's kind of a brat and bitey and clawy. Since my last pediatrician visit, I've increased my intake and hasn't been as much of a problem until this last week, even though there wasn't much reason for concern until a lot of little things started happening. Repeated low blood sugars mostly at night/middle of the night, cause I'm a night owl, staying up until wee hours of early morning, more often than not; playing video games on my DS a lot (mostly Pokemon, not really to try to get my drive back even though it has given me ideas for random pairings and such, if wanna practice or just write for the appeal, etc); attempts at taking care of it not seeming to be as effective as used to be or just not doing enough REPEATEDLY (drinking Orange Juice, sometimes a snack). And it's just getting ANNOYING. But makes me wanna cry more than get angry, right now.
I've fought a lot last several years of my life (personal stuff), but right now, I'm just fed up with it. Latest case of this was within last hour, but even though it was more my fault/doing, for eating a Lunchables meal few hours ago when I was already high (not even hungry) and taking a seemingly appropriate amount of insulin, I just feel like fate's trying to make me kick the bucket, so to speak. Heck, even today, I TRIED to take care of it by speaking to my physician; though he wasn't around, the receptionist attempted to help me and took my recorded sugars, but as she said someone would call back before they closed, and yet they DIDN'T. "Why didn't you call back?", you might ask? Well, I was distracted at the time, with TV or stuff on Internet or DS game, not sure exactly. 
Anyway, of course, I still WANT to keep surviving to live a full life and whatnot, but right now... not so much, even if I'm a bit better now than when I started this journal. 
Anyway, I just wanna know if anyone I know (watching me or knows me personally) has or anyone who watches me knows someone who's felt like this, etc. Or if should not feel like this, even if this again, has only been a week and first time has felt like this since it happened. But as the adage goes, "Everyone's gotta die sometime." or "It was just his/her time.", yet I'm convinced it's not MY time by a long shot. 
And I just am gonna have to take my own steps until call back again either tomorrow or Monday (to ensure I talk with MY physician about the subject), cause I'm not sure if it's just mix of timing and all the things I said before, because it's just getting frustrating even if as said before, earlier I wanted to cry moreso. Or possibility of something more being wrong with me, since I can be higher when I'm sick, and not sure if anything can cause low sugars repeatedly; even if more likely all that I stated before.
Hopefully, didn't forget anything here. In other news, I finally truly MAY have a first story to finally submit soon, if all goes well for a contest on this site for the selfcest group. Won't spoil basic plot (especially if you look on the group itself), but will say it should be interesting! 
And will hope you enjoy, if it's your thing! ^^;
I always felt that way, and even do most of the time today. I've never had any kind of illness or anything (except for some Asbergous Syndrone from what my douche of a dad I have says), but I know how that feels. I was always the odd one out, the third wheel, the lone wolf, etc. No matter what I did, no one gave a single care for me; my Dad would pick me up and shove me to the ground just because I lightly pushed my sister onto a rug, cuss at me, punch me in the arm for fun, drink in front of me and pretend to offer me some; my first 'friend' was a kid who my second grade teacher told to hang out with me since I was new to the school and was really shy and he abandoned me within a couple days, when I broke my arm in a game of kickball not one kid bothered to comfort me or even ask if I was okay, whenever I tried to play any game people would always say that I was on the other team just so they wouldn't have me near them, I was insulted and physically harmed by people I didn't know or hardly knew, my brothers have actually attempted to kill me at least two times before, my parents had divorced when I was only about four, and just to add the emotional sadness my great grandmother (the closest thing I had to a friend) died and I had to go to her funeral on my 12th Birthday. Every time something, anything remotely good starts to enter my life, it almost always is taken away and replaced with bitterness and despair. Except for one thing; Friendship is Magic. When I first heard about this show was in a spoof crossover between it and Transformers but I hadn't looked up the show yet. Later someone told me about it and said that I should at least watch the first 11 episodes to see what I thought. I had never experienced the joy that this show gave me; I felt like I had left my cold, lonely world and entered a place where others cared about me. I'm still insulted and treated like garbage for the normal reasons and now more thanks to the show but I have no regrets. If it weren't for this show, then I wouldn't be around today and be able to write my stories and meet great friends like you and many other bronies. Looking forward to your story and I'm sure that it'll be a good read.
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Your story sounds WAY sadder than my own, even if it's somewhat my own fault. Not sure if should be divulging here, but seeing as I planned to probably somewhat anyways, on a future HiE self-insert story I plan on doing, might as well say.
Damn man...
Of course, growing up I dealt with some issues from my dad, as he was never much of a husband/father, but mom stayed with him cause she quit a job to work in the school system and needed the money, etc. Beat me up, smoked and drank, called me names, etc. And this was BEFORE he got diagnosed with dementia after his parents died several years ago, within a year of each other, from drinking too much alcohol and whiskey together. Still kind of messed up and somewhat worse (cooks food burned, even though never cooked before went crazy, never bathes, etc). I did have some issues in school sometimes as well, even though I was maybe more innocent/timid before high school. Did also get picked on supposedly, even though I don't remember much of that, at least from early on in high school... someone who saw it happening recently apologized to me online for not sticking up for me, in my graduating class. Also succumbed to peer pressure when I was put in a career class didn't want to be in in 11th grade, and got myself in trouble for a bit, at least once that can remember.
Since hadn't had the 'talk' with parents or sex ed in school, didn't know what a cock was, ugh. At least, I think that's how it was... 
Anyway, thanks to all that, it sorta changed me and mom as well, not as close as used to be, far from it in fact... get yelled at, abused verbally and sometimes physically too when trying to stand up for myself, do things I shouldn't sometimes, etc. I tried to get a job six years ago, but mom wouldn't let me, cause of stuff I did at house that shouldn't reflect desire/actions at job and I've been too afraid kinda to bring it up anytime since.
So yeah, my days are spent lounging around house, since I never quite finished college for a diploma in something, other than an AA in General Studies... due to fire mentioned in a previous blog, if wanna see it. So yeah, my life sucks, even though it doesn't sound near as bad as yours.
I'm SO sorry that yours sounds awful, even if the show seems to have improved your outlook on life somewhat (had a different friend like you at one time, who got mistreated and even got certain community turned against him cause of whiny little kid spreading lies, etc, before we got into an argument cause of something I did a while back that irritated him and despite me being easily able to get mad, I've NEVER gotten mad at him, I guess cause I'm loyal like Rainbow Dash (except if someone betrays a closer friend and not really that close in the first place); haven't tried to get back in contact with him to see if could be friends again, at least), and you're continuing to fight, etc, like me even if I've been doing so long before discovering Friendship Is Magic and actually watching it. I dunno if has improved my life as much as yours, but it's definitely brought a new level of joy into my life like yourself I think, even if I somewhat hardly watch it on my current schedule when it's on on TV and watch it little online.
But I definitely love the show and the characters, EVERYTHING about it, even if I can't entirely explain or say why I just love it so much, like I might've been able to say in the beginning after first got into it (at least I think so). 
And thanks! Hopefully, even without saying the pony that's duplicated/focus of the story and possibility of clop or not, will enjoy the story if I can write it well.
But yes, there will be some clop. 
PS: Sorry for the journal, sugars have improved maybe a LITTLE since last night (even though it's still kinda daytime technically, but not as late as normally when low lately), but not entirely and I never feel like dying, at least for long. Just cause, despite Diabetes and the hell my life is as stated, still want to live a long life and hopefully find that special somebody and job, etc, that will make me happy.
But last night, I was in a bad mood even if was more upset as stated then, rather than angry.
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I'm sorry
; if it means anything, there's one thing that really messed with me emotionally that I didn't put in. Actually that seems like it would make it worse 
. But that is something that you will never know for it is too great of a secret for any human to know. To prove it I will sing a song about why you can't know and then you will ask and I will tell you anyway just like in another movie that Lauren was a part of. It's okay Lauren, we all make mistakes.
I can explain why; it has catchy songs, relatable and fun characters, entertaining stories, good life lessons, PLOT, references, adult jokes, amazing animation, good humor, and most importantly.............. JOHN DE LANCIE IS IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Puts on sunglassess and grabs Arnold Schwarzenegger accent* It better be good, OR I WILL EAT YOU! ARGEGEAGHPEIENCOENHIOHIOSJRPHPSCJN!!!!
But in all seriousness, with everything the two of us have endured, there is one thing to remember...
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It's not gay if it's on the moon.
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Sorry to hear that? Of course, lots more I haven't said that somewhat remembering now, even if it doesn't happen as much as some of the other things mentioned. And not really going to mention more than already have about what my life's been like, since before and during my time as a brony, explaining somewhat about why haven't written as much at times as I've wanted to or felt like.
And eh, never saw Star Trek: The Next Generation, so John de Lancie's role in it didn't interest me or make me start watching just before Season 2 was planned to start, honestly. But I suppose the rest are true even if I sometimes never notice the adult jokes that've been implemented since the producers or whomever noticed that the fandom extended to us adults, not just little girls and/or boys. DESPITE me sort of being a pervert, honestly.
Lol?
And eh, if kidding:
//dl.dropbox.com/u/31471793/FiMFiction/emoticons/sillyfilly_Fluttershy.png My apologies if wasn't serious and read this anyways. 
If not, if saw my page and groups to know I'm a bisexual brony (though can't seem to say same for you, even though thanks to ya, discovered that AppleSeed group and just joined it earlier): barely know ya beyond this, even if you are kind of a kindred spirit like that other guy I mentioned (though he was more of a worker than I was). Not to mention, past people have attempted relationships with, was only crushes and never really stayed in love for long or could feel things online, so probably don't really know what actual love is like, even if doubt you are serious.
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I actually did not know that, I had just been quoting a funny line from a video I had just seen where six guys were playing a game where they were on the moon and having fun with a text box and Steven Hawking voice. I'm not really gay or bisexual, but I am bicurious. If I actually met a guy who genueinly liked me, I would at least give it a shot.